Depression sucks! Lieterally. Everyday I am happy but than bam I'm being attack by this deep,dark, monster inside of me. I have so many things locked up in this soul of mine and they just wanna come out. But instead I let it consume me slowly. I know it's bad for my health but it's better than trusting someone than knowning they'll sab you in the back. How many of you been through depression, or know somemone that has depression say I. Please whatever you do don't try and kill yourself it's scary. I know this because in the 6th I overdosed and cut my arms and legs more than 100 times to be honest. I was sastified at first but than as I began to feel my system shut down, I screamed and there I was, my parents scared, and lil brother confused. Once I arrived at the hosptial I had a very close calll of staying there over night. There sights that will never get outta of my head since that day. Once I recovered and was released after being interrogated I felt selfish and so stupid! I will never forgive myself for almost leaving my little brother who needs his older sister to protect him. I will never forgive myself for all the members in my family who almost had to attend a funeral of a 12 year old. Last but not least, I will never forgive myself for leaving friends behind. I thought no one would care. Everyday I was bullied had broken bones,text messages,notes on my locker, etc. It was hell in my old school and through elementary years. I decided over this summer I'd trans. out to my towns school and to be completely honest I am happier no one judges you and no one beats on you. I've made better friends then ever that I can somewhat trust on certain levels. Also, I found a beautiful girl who I am proud to c all mine. Now this all may sound like a fairy tale but it's not. Sure there will always be depression behind every corner waiting to attack but I'm willing to get through it. I hope this has opened your eyes up to a life new prospective. Once day I will share my life story with you. Comment below please and tell me your depression stories or even your life story. I will give you much advice as I can because darling, I CARE. Yes I am a girl on the other side of the screen who has no clue what so ever who you are but I will LOVE YOU all. Well this is the end of this section. I love you.
Sincerely,
BvbArmyGirl22
