Make Me Yours

Black Hole

WARNING: CONTAINS VIOLENT SCENES

"You think you could get away Tony but you can't. You need me. The world is a crazy place, someone like you won't make it out there alone."

John, the guy I feel in love with. The one I gave my heart to, hoping in return for his. It's been 3 years. Three years of the same words. I could recite them as he spoke. It's how he justifies his actions. He tells me he's only trying to toughen me up, get me ready for the real world.

"Tony, are you listening to me?" Oh shit, I just make it worst.

"N-no sorry-y. I was just thinking of how much I appreciate you helping me out." Lies. Nothing but lies, the only things I can use to survive.

"God dammit Tony. You'll be punished for that. How many times do I have to tell you I don't like repeating my self? Huh? You ungrateful piece of shit. No matter how much I try to help you, you can't seem to do the simplest things for me."

And that's when the blows began.

"That's for not listening." Again. "That's for thinking rather than paying attention." Again. "That's for not being grateful." Again. "And that's for you to remember what happens when you think you can do as you please."

By the end I could hardly open my eyes. He wasn't the guy I fell in love with. No he was far from it. I don't know how I would be going to to school tomorrow. I wouldn't be able to get away with these bruises again.

"Oh god, I'm so sorry Tony. You know I'm just trying to help. I love you so much, OK?"

Tears welled in my eyes. Once upon a time those words held truth. Now...now they're empty. A reflection of our relationship.

"Y-yeah. I'm sorry for letting you down again.."

And with that he was grabbing his coat heading for the door.

"Make sure your at school tomorrow on time Tony and don't answer any questions, I'll take care of it when I get there. I love you."

"Alright, bye"

"Tony..." He was waiting, waiting for the words I barely had the strength to say anymore.

"I... I love you too."

He smiled and left. I was finally alone. I let it all out. No matter how bad it burned I couldn't seem to stop crying. How did we get to this? It was all joy and fun up until two years ago. I would never forget the first time he hit me. It was my birthday. I was turning 16 and was late to his house. Something he considered irresponsible and disgraceful.

I got up after I had nothing left to cry and made my way to the bathroom. I took one look in the mirror and knew this was going to take tons of foundation to cover up. Sighing I grabbed a change of clothes placing them on the counter and hopped in the shower.

I hope he doesn't come back tonight. I won't be able to handle it. After what seemed to be hours the water began running cold. My cue to get out.

I changed into clothes that wouldn't rub to much against my skin and crawled under my covers. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

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I woke up to my alarm clock ringing. Oh how I dreaded that noise.

Deciding I had no time to waste I got up brushed my teeth and began rummaging through my closet. I opted for some skinnys, my Sleeping with Sirens hood, and black vans. Grabbing my cell, bag, and keys I locked up grabbed my longboard and was on my way to school.

"Tony!!!" It was that loud screechy voice that belonged to the one and only Angie. Speak of the devil. I turned just in time as she ran up to me.

"Hey Angie. Where's Ben?" Seeing the fact that she still hadn't answered my question I looked up from my cellphone. She was staring. Dammit, looks like I didn't do a good enough job this time.

"Did he do it?" She was using her 'I'm so going to kill him' tone. I didn't answer her.

"I swear to God, your mother, father, Elmo, Barney, and mother fucking Dora, if you don't do something about it. Or him for that matter I will Tony. You know damn well you don't deserve that asshole."

"Angie please just drop it. It was my fault anyways, I wasn't listening. He said he was sorry. He was just having a rough day that's all."

"Your fault? Are you smoking Tony? He did that because you weren't listening? What if Ben did that to me? Huh? What would you do Tony?"

"I would beat the shit out of him."

"Exactly Tony. What makes you any different? You have to put an end to this Tony. I'm so tired of finding you like this, you-"

"Alright alright. He's coming. Please please please save this for later. He seems happy don't mess it up Angie please."

She was furious but I know she wouldn't risk me getting hurt again.

"Hey baby. Hey Angie."

Angie rolled her eyes not bothering to answer him.

"Hey. I've been waiting for you."

"I see, looks like you've learned a thing or to from yesterday."

I could see Angie trying to hold her cool. But knowing her she would blow soon if John kept this going on. He was pushing her. Trying to get her to go off on him in order for him to justify his actions later. To my luck all Angie did was tighten her grip on her books.

"Fetch Tony. Go on get it boy!" That was Angie's way of letting John know I wasn't a dog. I love her so so much. We looked at each other and no matter how tight John's grip on my waist got I couldn't seem to stop laughing.

I laughed and laughed till I started seeing black spots. By then one of Johns friends had called him over.

He started making his way over there, stopped, and came back up to me.

"We'll see how hard you'll be laughing tonight."

And with that he was gone.

I could only imagine what he would do.

"What did he say Tony?"

I jumped. I had completely forgotten Angie was still there.

"Oh um he just said he'll see me later."

"Okay.." She knew I was lying but was kind enough to let me off the hook this time.

The bell rang signaling we had 4 minutes to get to class. I grabbed my books from my locker and went out on my way to my first block of the day.

Maybe he'll forget by tonight.

I could only hope.

AUTHORS NOTES:
HEY GUYS! THIS IS A STORY THAT I LITERALLY JUST THOUGHT OF. I WROTE THIS CHAPTER AT 1:49AM. I DECIDED I WANTED TO START WRITING AND HERE IT IS. THIS STORY WILL BE SOMETHING I COME UP WITH ON THE WAY. IT WILL CONTAIN MANY SEXUAL, VIOLENT, AND OTHER GRAPHIC SCENES. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK. I WILL BE PUTTING WARNINGS AT THE TOP OF CHAPTERS IF THEY CONTAIN ANYTHING JUST IN CASE YOU WANT TO SKIP IT.