Mattia x Kairi|| The journal

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-mattia's pov:

i read that page and laughed a little. he looked like one of those kids who does all their work then goes to sleep. but smoking? who would've thought. i turned to the next page to see a girl.. disappointing..

"me and kim snuck out to see one of those silent movie things. we didn't really watch the movie though. she kept touching and kissing me. i hated it. she literally makes me sick. anyways now i have to go shower for hours to get her smell off of me. k bye."

wow.. he doesn't really let off a "sneak out to make out" kinda guy. well if he was with me we'd change that. i felt bad looking through his personal stuff but i just had to read one more.

"my sugar daddy got me this lmfao. just kidding but alvaro seriously is the best. i wish he would stop leaving me alone to go hang out with whoever he's talking to. i also wish he would tell me who's he's talking to :( imma be alone forever.. k bye"

the way he writes is so fucking cute for some reason. i close the book and put it in my closet. i'll return it.... soon.

i also realized i now have no math notes. fuck.

-kairi's pov:

i got home and went up to my room. my mom was in the kitchen smoking a cigarette. gross. i dropped my stuff down and opened my phone. i saw a text from kim.

kimberly 🖤

kimberly 🖤
hey.. wanna come over? i'm kinda horny

me
can't. my mom knows what we did and she's pissed.

kimberly 🖤
damn that's tuff for u.

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no my mom doesn't know what we did. and yes i can go out right now but i don't want to. kimberly only calls me when she wants to have sex. the only reason i'm "dating" her is because i can't tell my mom i'm gay.

i know it's not right that i'm only using kim to stay in the closet but i honestly don't think she'd care if i dropped dead tomorrow.

i remember i took a picture of these nice looking flowers yesterday. i grabbed my bag so i could get my.... what i call my "depressing documentaries". i reached my hand in my bag and didn't feel it. i moves my hand around more and still didn't feel anything. i dumbed the bag out onto the floor and my book wasn't there at all.

fuck..

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Thanks for reading 🦋🤮🖤.-Elmira