What we have

~ Chapter 1 ~

*Knock knock* 

He’s here.

I put down the book that I’m reading on the center table and opened the door.

“Hey!” He greeted with a smile. A cheerful one

“Hey!” That’s all that I can say.

“Ready?” He asked.  I just nodded and then we get going.

A saturdate with the guy a secretly like. Does he seem so near? Yeah maybe. But maybe not. Do you think I’m lucky? Of course I think I’am. Syempre ano! it’s not all the time na yayayain ka ng crush mo makipagdate. Pero kasi my case hindi na nakakagulat yun. Especially kapag close kami, laging magkasama. Sabay pumasok sa school, sabay kumain kapag breaktime, sabay umuwi. In short, he’s my bestfriend. A type of story na gasgas na gasgas na sa teleserye at radio. But wait! There’s more. Its way complicated than that. Wanna know why? Simple. He’s

“Sabihin ko na ba?”

Nasa baywalk kami ngayon. Sa MOA. Nagchi-chill lang at nagk-kwentuhan after ng ilang oras na pags-stroll.

“Ang alin? Kanino?” I asked. Pertaining to his question.

“Na-vaklush ako. You know, kay mudrabels! Eh kasi naman, pinipilit na naman niya akong ligawan ka!” Muntik kong maibuga yung coke float ko.

“HAHAHA!” Halakhak ko. Pero deep inside. OO! Gawin mo na! Charot.

Actually nasabi na rin ito sa akin dati ng mother niya. Sabi pa nga raw bagay daw kami. Parehas kaming walang nasabi nun. Tinawanan lang namin. Lalo na siya. To him, it was nothing.

He never knew how I feel about him. Wala rin akong balak sabihin.

“Ew girl! Di talaga tayo talo.” He said with a laugh. Alam ko naman yun eh.

“Ughh.. I know right! Kaya nga umamin ka na sa kanila pero hindi ka na nila kinukulit” I said

“Jusko girl. Anong gusto mo? Magkaroon ng World War 9000 sa bahay? Alam mo naman ang issue naming divah” Sabi niya. Tumango nalang ako. Hindi kasi siya open sa parents niya about his sexuality. Last time he talk about it, they had an argument.

“Yiiee! Sunset na!” Pag-iiba niya sa topic. Inilapag niya yung kanyang drinks ang kinuha yung phone. He took a picture of the sunset.

“Ang ganda talaga ng sunset. This is nature at it’s best!” I exclaimed.

“Yeah. Pero mas maganda ako kaya magselfie tayo.”

And without warning, hinila niya ako closer to him at nagselfie sa magandang view.

“Smile!” He said as he wrapped his arms around me.

Eto yun. Eto yung isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit ayaw kong magconfess. I don’t want to lose this. Our friendship, our closeness. Who knows what might happen diba. Paano pag nalaman niya, layuan nalang niya ako.

“Ganda natin girl! Kaya bagay tayo eh.” He joked habang tinitignan yung selfie namin.

“Patingin nga! Tsk. Kaw naman kasi eh. May paakbay-akbay ka pang nalalaman. Napapagkamalan tuloy tayong TAYO.”

“Eh kasi naman girl. Kung naging lalaki ka lang sana eh… Edi TAYO na. Haha.” He said. Aba at ako pa ha. Sayo ko dapat sinasabi yan Nick. Kung naging totong lalaki ka lang sana.