Nakatitig lang ako sa magandang kalangitan ng may narinig akong ingay galing sa labas
"Zaya!"
"Ay putang ina may magnanakaw!"napasigaw ako sa gulat ng may biglang sumigaw
"Grabe ka naman! Di mo man lang ako na miss?"
Ilang segundo akong nakatulala at hindi naka salita ng nakita ko na kung sino ang nasa harapan ko
"Hello?di mo ba ako sasagutin ghorl?" Shanen was waving her hand
"Wait lang! Ikaw ba talaga yan?"
"Hello?Imahinasyon lang ba ako sa tingin mo?"
"Hi"
"Anong hi?"aniya
"Sabi mo hello eh"
"Tang ina ka talaga, namiss kita ah!" sinugod niya ako at yumakap
But I didn't hug her back, because I know even if years have passed I still coudn't forget it
"Namiss din kita, you changed a lot. Upo muna tayo"
Umupo kami sa couch. I watch her closely, I can say that she changed a lot. She became more beautiful, I admit it.
"You too! Your features are more noticeable!"
"But it's nothing compared to yours"
"Alam ko na yan, just kidding. Pumasok na ako sa loob kasi kahit ilang katok ko na 'di ka pa din sumasagot. I'm not really expecting you to be here kasi akala ko lumipat kana. So I was surprised to see you here"
"I'm not yet ready to leave this place"
Nung sinabi ko yon, silence envelope us. Not wanting to talk about the unwanted past.
"Pero kung may plano ka na bumili ng bagong condo, just call me may kakilala ako. Yun parin ang number ko, I didn't changed it."
"Okay thank you for the offer Shanen pero wala pa talaga akong plano na umalis dito , ano nga pala ang pinunta mo?"
"I came here to give you this" she handed me a white envelope
"Ano 'to?"ani ko at kinuha iyon
"It's for you to find out, yan na nga lang ang maitutulong ko sayo eh. Para sayo talaga yan pero hindi yan galing sakin, pinabigay lang yan."
"Hindi mo talaga sasabihin kung kanino to galing?"
"Malalaman mo lang naman din, kapag nabas--" hindi na niya natapos ang sasabihin nung tumunog ang cellphone niya
"Oh, my mom just called at pinapatawag na ako. I need to go na, it's nice to see you Zaya!"
"It's nice seeing you too Shanen"
"Bye bye!"aniya at hinatid ko na sa labas ng condo
Nakakabingi ang katahimikan, and I didn't like it. Kaya binuksan kuna white envelope, I knew it was a letter but i didn't know who sent it to me, obviously.
My eyes started to water when I saw the hand writing. I know this hand writing, alam kong sa kanya iyon dahil sa limang taon naming pagsasama alam ko na ang lahat ng galaw niya, lahat lahat.
I did not want to read the letter, baka babangutin na naman ako ng mga nakakatakot na alaala sa nakaraan. I put the letter on my drawer at naligo na para bisitahin siya.
Kakatapos ko lang maligo and I am now wearing a high waisted jeans and a plain gray t shirt. Pagkatapos kong magbihis ay pumunta na ako sa kanya.
Lumabas ako sa sasakyan and I just found myself standing in front of his grave
"Hi Kio, na miss kita ah. Sorry kung ngayon lang ako nakabalik." Ani ko at unti unti ng nabasag ang boses
"Did you really wrote the letter that Shanen gave me?kailan mo sinulat yon?bakit ngayon pa nakarating sa akin? Hindi ko mabasa basa kasi kahit paglapat lang ng mga kamay ko sa sulat mo at pagkita lang sa sulat kamay mo, ay hindi ko na nakayanan" I inhaled deeply
"I love you, I hope you know how much I love you. That I'll do anything, everything just to see you alive again."
"Really?you will do anything?"
Agad akong napalingon nung may narinig akong nagsalita
My eyes widened
"Kio!"
"No miss, I'm not Kio"
"You're kidding me, how are you still alive?!"
"Miss, listen. I am not Kio okay?"
"Kung hindi ikaw si Kio bakit kamukha mo siya?your features are almost the same as his!" dahil sa gulat ko ay napasigaw na ako.
"Don't shout, I'm not Kio okay?for the last time, I am not Kio. I'm his twin brother"
Twin brother?For the 5 fucking years I didn't know Kio has a twin?
"Ay weh di nga?"
His laughed echoed in the cemetery kasi wala namang tao dito, It's 3:00 pm at hindi na masyadong mainit
"Really, I'm not kidding."
"We've been together for 5 years but why the hell I didn't know na may twin brother pala siya?"
"I wasn't here in the Philippines that's why"
"Pero bakit hindi niya man lang nabanggit sa akin?"
"Don't ask me, ask him instead."aniya kaya tinignan ko ang lapida niya at nagtanong
"Bakit di mo nasabi sa akin?"
His laugh once again echoed
"Bakit ka tumawa?"
"Tss, Gullible" the side of his lips rose up
"What?"
"Gullible"he smirked
"Say it once again and your dead"ani ko na napipikon na
"Okay okay i'm going to stop" aniya at tinigil na ang nakakapikon niyang ngiti, but I saw a ghost of smile na pinipigilan niyang lumabas
"I'm going to walk with you until we reach outside."
"Okay"ani ko at tumulak na sa paglalakad
"We're here"
"Salamat sa pagsama, may I ask kung bakit ka pala nandon?"I look so stupid right now kasi bakit ko pa naman yun natanong eh kambal niya naman si Kio.
"No problem, I was just visiting you- I mean him, Kio."
"Ah, sige alis na ako. Ingat ka pauwi."
"You too, take care."
Dumiritso na ako sa sasakyan ko at umuwi na sa condo but then I did not succeed dahil sa kalagitnaan ng byahe ay may nangyari
Light covered my whole vision, hindi ako nakagalaw agad ng nakita ko ang sasakyan bago tumama sakin. Iyan lang ang nakita ko bago gumulong-gulong ang sasakyan na sinasakyan at iyon na ang huling namataan ng mga mata ko bago ako tuluyan nang kinuha ng kadiliman.
