It's been a long time since I actually felt this way. Seven years ago I lost my father. I had a hard time coping with it back then. But when my mother left me in the care of my uncle, I felt devastated. Uncle Jimmy took care of me and had difficulty getting me to eat and move around. He had my aunt Sarah help me into the baths and she would wash me carefully when I had surgery on my leg. I had a bullet removed and it hurt like hell. The pain of losing my father hurt.
I went by the house I used to live in and went inside of it. It was abandoned ever since and no one bothered to buy the house. I searched through many boxes that were left there. I found my old childhood book. Snow White. My father used to read this to me when I was little. Then he would improvise the story and make me laugh. He was a serious man, but a very silly one. I guess that's where I got my randomness from.
I collected the family pictures and packed them into boxes then I brought them outside to my car to put them in. I couldn't leave them there and collect dust. Then, I heard a voice.
"Hello Mackenzie...."
That voice, I recognize it well. I turned around and see it was my mother. Nerissa. She held something in her hands and it looked like a ring. She walked over to me and I stepped back a little.
"What's wrong? Aren't you happy to see me? I'm back.", she says as she tried to assure me.
"Why are you here?"
"I saw you came to this house and I stopped by here to see if you would come in. Why are you gathering the boxes?", she asked me as she still held the ring in her hands.
"It's none of your business."
She looked at me as if I insulted her and she sighed. "You're angry. It was expected."
"You left me all those years ago and you just turn up all of a sudden?! Seven years mom. Seven years!!"
She sighed again and she walked closer toward me and I didn't feel like moving backward. She handed me the ring and placed it into my hand. "I want you to have this. It's a special ring."
I pushed it back to her as I put it back into her hands. "I don't have time for this."
"Can we please talk this out? I understand you held a grudge all these years and it's eating up inside of you! Just hear me out! Mackenzie, please.....", she says as she now sounded like she was begging forgiveness.
I couldn't. She did this years ago without a word. But I know my father might be watching over me still and would want me to give her another chance. Slamming the trunk down, I sighed.
"Fine. We can talk it out but not here. We can get lunch and we can talk there."
She smiled and nodded to me. She got into the car with me and I drove to the diner since I didn't feel like going to any fancy restaurants. The waitresses know me there and also know my order well. My mother got her order in and she sits across from me.
"Okay, talk. Why did you leave those years ago?"
"Mackenzie....back then I was grieving over him I needed time alone. But my ambitions got the best of me.", she says finally after being silent for a long while during the drive over here.
"What ambitions? Explain. I got all day."
"Let's just say my thirst for power got the better of me. I fought these guardians and--"
"I heard enough....that doesn't explain it."
"I'm not done. I saw the error of my ways and what lead me to it. The thought of you, I had to let that side of me go and come looking for you. But I was afraid of what you would think of me.", she says finally.
