Cycles [ChanBaek]

[Cycle 2- Baekhyun]

Baekhyun had always adored his best friend and even harbored a small crush back in their high school days. Chanyeol was amazing, sweet, kind, and smart, but the smaller always knew it wouldn't work out, so he gave up on the idea and forgot all about those feelings.

He wasn't one to date much, and neither was Chanyeol, though they'd gone out with people here and there in high school. Still, Baekhyun never considered himself experienced in that department, nor was he interested in any of that either, anyway.

By the time they reached college, Baekhyun had completely disregarded the thought of dating, or at least figured his priority had to be school above everything else.

This all changed, though, the day a sophomore started to talk to him occasionally. They'd met at a coffee shop after Baekhyun accidently spilled his coffee on him and since then, the guy had approached him any chance he could. He wasn't the most attractive man out there, but that didn't matter much to Baekhyun, who found his personality appealing and even, dare he say, sexy.

With time, their occasional greetings between classes turned into avid texting, which eventually evolved into study dates and later on, to real dates.

The guy was charming, that was undeniable, and funny, and a flirt. It was easy for him to slip into Baekhyun's heart without him noticing. It didn't take long for him to become Baekhyun's boyfriend and from the start, Baekhyun thought the man to be the perfect match for him.

The change, though, was subtle. So subtle, in fact, that Baekhyun didn't notice how he started to spend less time with Chanyeol and Jisoo and more with his boyfriend, or how his boyfriend's attitude shifted.

His boyfriend was hiding stuff from him, Baekhyun knew that, he could sense it, yet every time he asked, his boyfriend would deny it. "You're going crazy," he would often say 'jokingly', though something in his eyes and body language told Baekhyun that he meant it.

Still, Baekhyun told himself that if his boyfriend said it then he had to be right.

With this, came a shift in his dynamics, with his boyfriend visiting the apartment Baekhyun shared with Chanyeol and Jisoo more often. Each time, his boyfriend would get very touchy and possessive, which would oftentimes make him feel uncomfortable.

Since Baekhyun believed in the special connection he shared with his boyfriend, he mentioned it to him one afternoon, telling him exactly how he felt about displays of that sort. His boyfriend, though, took it the wrong way.

"Are you ashamed of me?" he asked, looking genuinely upset at Baekhyun's words.

Immediately, Baekhyun felt guilty about this, but his boyfriend would have none of it.

This wasn't the last time it happened, and since Baekhyun had never really had a real relationship, he figured these things had to be normal.

This kept occurring and he would often have fights with Jisoo over this, since the girl was adamant that it was disrespectful for the couple to do stuff like that when she and Chanyeol were at the apartment. And while something in Baekhyun told him she was right and despite the discomfort he felt whenever his boyfriend got too touchy in front of them, he felt compelled to defend him, to prove to him that he was proud of being his boyfriend.

With time, the situation got messier and he found himself heading more frequently to his boyfriend's apartment. As it was, they were taking their time with taking the next step, though Baekhyun noticed his boyfriend's distance after Baekhyun explained he wasn't quite ready for sex just yet.

"I've never done it and I don't know if I should do it just yet. I'm just getting used to dating."

His boyfriend hadn't said anything after that, though it was obvious that he didn't like it either, and Baekhyun felt guilty.