howdy cowboy (tomxtord Saloonatics AU)

relax

Tom's POV

"Dam girls been driving me up a tree seince my first day as a teen
Hounding me the fuck her seinceless"
I paced back and forth infront of the preacher "pardon my language father" the man nodded "your forgiven" he said calmly.
I groaned and ran my fingers through my hair "I mean I like me a fine girl just not her!" I said sitting across from the man in black he nodded slowly
And looked me in the eyes "boy...I said your cured it's just up to you to prove that you are cured. that God has salvaged you sinful soul and rid you of your devious tendencies...at least I hope"
I stood up and nodded "yes of course father" I stammered "I just don't want this kinda treatment for something I used to think, saying it out loud now sounds insane to me" I paused
"the fact I used to be a homosexual is revolting"
Father stood a little shorter than I
"My son, I trust you with my life"
And patted my holder lightly then left me with my thoughts.

I walked over to the bar she walked into the building a relief from the swerltering heat. "Sherrif! You said you where getting us lunch you've been gone for 2 hours! You don't got nothin' in your hands" the bandit clad in red said a small smile of his face as he owly approached me.....shirtless and his pants unbuttoned. I felt a tingle in my spine and a twinge in my heart a heat in my face and a pressure in my neathers.

Oh no Lord please no I've sworn off these tepmtaions don't send me to hell

I looked him in they eyes though it was hard. He laughed a little and pulled on the bandana covering his face
"Sherrif your late for once" the bandit pulled me into the bar, for once it actually is "lookin' real good" I said
It looked more welcomeing like a home.
He smiled and poured out a few glasses
"We I actually fixed the upstairs enough to where I can stay so I decided it's time to break the place in" he handed me the glass and slammed his down faster than I could get the drink to my lips.
He grabbed a big bottle of rum and handed it to me "you seem trustworthy enough to get drunk with" I held the bottle by the neck with both hands "red I really don't need to be drinking right now" the chances of me not being able to resist temptations are too grate.
Red groaned "oh but your so uptight all the time you just need to unwind"

The way I want to unwind wold get me killed or shunned

I pushed him away "I really shouldn't"
The stomped his foot "ugh! When did y'all become such panzies!" He grabbed
The bottle out of my hand at sat back at the bar starring at me as he took down the rest of the bottle...and 5 others by days end.
He was mummbeling
And nearly passed out on the floor and pukes twice.
I tried to lift him but he refused and continued to drink "no red! You must sleep" I grabbed his arm and pulled him up the steps to the rooms their were 5 total rooms only 2 where ok but 1 was decorated and looked like a real bedroom.
So I placed him in the bed with red sheets and a thin blanket
I looked at him over every feature of his body

He's and easy target....but no not yet....yet?

Not ever never I'll never do it again
Not to myself or another pour soul that happen to cross my path I don't need any of my friends being sick like I was...am... like I am.

I slowly backed out of the room
Something pulled me to that room
And told me to never leave to protect than man with my life. To tell him he's handsome and loved.

Is it just lonelyness, just desperation, am I foolish enough to deal out a man for love?

I walked back my office an officer was sitting on my desk " howdy!" He said with a small kind wave but the joy left his tone when he saw my face "haveing trouble again?" He got up slow and spoak in a suductive tone pulling my by my collar All the way to my bed "maby you need to relax" I couldn't help it

All I need is this love. To know that someone cares about me in some way

"Maby I do need to relax just a little"