the girl

my case

I was born in 2006 on April 26th. but I don't look forward to my birthday for some reason it's not like I have an abusive dad or have no friends. It's... just I get so afraid when I go to public places on my birthday because my dad surprised me with going to public places. I never told him I didn't feel comfortable with it "My so-called friends"told me everyone has fears but I have A lot of fears like being in a world with only me but I get everything I want it was. So terrifying one I thought about it. But I can't tell you all my fears there are too many so much there is too much to Justified as fears. One I was little I had these dreams I felt like I had these experiences in real life I would have Vivid nightmares well in at least that's s what my dad says it was.

I still have these nightmares but it's here and there not all the time. Ooo I forgot to say my name. It's Devore it's a weird name but my dad said that was my mother's last word before she passed I never really asked what it means I knew it meant something about my mother. Because She wouldn't just name me some weird name before she passed away with no meaning to it at all. least I wouldn't but I never knew my mother so I couldn't assume anything so I didn't at school one talked about my mom I said I really can't assume anything to my friends and at home, my dad says I can't assume things when I do about my mom. I never really can't shake off the feeling of something wrong. Of course, I had a good life and I'm gorgeous but I'm not like other girls because I'm a book worm and a sports girl but also after school. when I got done with my homework I played with my Xbox 1. Guys would flirt with me but the only thought I felt was grossed out or they only like me for my looks those only crossed my mind.

One day on 2013 September 14 at school when it was lunchtime my "friends" Katie and mya. Was talking about boys like they usually do when mya say do you know what a homosexual is. Katie responds to what are they. Me sitting right next to them I was curious what that word men' t. I was eavesdropping. But then she changed the subject after talking my ears off. That felt like forever. Finally, she went back to the subject. (Katie) homosexual are guys that like guys (mya) Ewww (Katie), yeah some go-to places to not to be homosexual like there are camps for them if they don't stop being homosexual. And the government let their parents torture them or teach them being gay is wrong. (Devore in her head) honestly, I wouldn't be discriminating someone for there sexuality but if I say it out loud.

People are going to make up stuff like how I'm homosexual. I wouldn't be surprised You know I rejected a lot of guys and I only have friends that are girls. lunch was over they wave bye to me. A year passed some weird things started happening to me I would blackout and see flashing things but they were a burl so I couldn't see it clearly. So I was at school trying to focus in class but I felt sick and kept blacking out then before I knew it I fell asleep and what I saw was a. Man, and he was smiling at me it felt like I seen this guy before. and his smile was so Familiar I was going to talk to him but then I heard someone say. devore devore! Devore!

I woke up I fell off my chair afraid. people were laughing so hard saying that I look like trash or how could I Be that dumb to fall off a stable chair the people who said that got detention. Other people were worried because I fell I helped me up. after class right before I stepped out of the class my teacher pulled me back. At first, I thought I was in trouble so. I asked if I was in trouble she said no but unexpectedly she sent me home she said please for your own good go home her voice was trembling and instead of her eyes looking terrified because of her voice but one I looked in her eyes it looked like she was worried and concerned so I went home my dad still at work. So I just did all my homework and after I played Minecraft on my Xbox after two I got bored I turned it off.

I took off my pants and shirt and put on pajamas and a long leather jacket and a necklace ok I will describe my necklace. my necklace is one of a kind my dad say that but I looked it up their tons that look the same. Though it is rare it's kind of like a locket but mine didn't have a picture in it. It has only had this weird crystal inside of it. I know what you are thinking about "why are you wearing a long leather jacket and a necklace?". Just you wait I going to explain that right now

Well, the leather jacket was. My mother and the necklace were my grandmother past down by generation my dad always said. Ok, I layed in my bed feeling uncomfortable but somehow I fell asleep I woke up at least I thought I did. A lady was near my bed but I could only see a woman figure so I just assumed it was a lady. Actually, she said something that scarred me for life she said they are coming in a ruff voice then she said don't trust anyone. I said who who who! she kept repeating the same thing over and over again her voice smoothly faded and everything turns black. Then I woke up frightened my head went straight up I took a big breath.

My dad was shaking me and stopped when I woke up. My dad said what's wrong in a voice I couldn't identify if he was scared or worry but eyes said he knew something would happen like this. Dad, I said am I normal. Hes eyes open wide and said. My sweet daughter if you are having nightmares again it doesn't mean anything now come for dinner. And did you think I would let you starve to death? And you shouldn't put on your pajamas so soon when you haven't had dinner. Now Get Changed I meet you in the kitchen, so I got changed went to the kitchen when I stepped into the kitchen my dad was sitting at the dinner table the food smelled home-cooked. my dad only makes home cook food sometimes it's not bad or he burns any of his food he makes it just although his cooking is really good. he just doesn't have time to make the food you see he works so much he is a sell man. And comes home late a lot we never really spend that much time together.

We were eating food he stop eating gulped hes water and. asked me how was school. I stopped eating and I said meh school is fine. He said if you ever need a person to talk to you can talk to me. You know that sweetie. I know I said then we continue eating in silence. once we finished dinner he asks me to clean the dishes. I cleaned the dishes. After I told my dad about my dream he looked anxious but he said sweetie as long as I'm here no one will hurt you. And said those dreams aren't real now go to sleep. I walked away and took a shower and. put on my pajama but didn't put on a leather jacket but I put on my necklace because it got pretty hot I didn't even use my blanket. I layed in my bed I thought about what my dad said there not really there just nightmares. I guess in my case my dreams just feel real to me.