It's only the beginning

Let's begin

I miss feeling your lips on mine. It made me feel like I was in another dimension, one without hurt and betrayal. But I betrayed you, I broke your heart and never expected you to forgive me, but you did and I still don't understand why. I thought I had moved and had all thoughts out of my mind of you. 2 months had past since the last time I had seen you and I had no idea I would ever feel that way for you again. It's almost like all my feelings ambushed me. A tower of feelings came crashing down all at once. I had to keep every ounce of pain within in me because I was seconds from falling apart right in front of everyone. It was my mistake I made and I wish I could take it back. And that's just what I did. But first lets go trough the whole story of how it all began.

I had seen him around the summer before but didn't really think much about him. We were both 14 at the time, he lived in Pennsylvania while I lived in Virginia. How could that have worked?, so I gave up on the thought and moved on. The summer after I decided to join the same drum corp I had seen him at because my brother had done it that summer and it inspired me greatly. I would see him around still but yet again didn't think much about it. We had a few camps in January till April. Within those few camps I got the chance to go with some friend to watch the first performance of the CWP inaugural season. We were selling merchandise at a table in front of the building that the competition was being held at. We had a few people ask to come try some stuff on and test some sticks and other items that were on display. We were next to to the door so we saw all the competitors before they went in to perform. A few percussion groups went in and there they were standing right in front of me, anxiously waiting for their chance to show everyone that they were there to kick some ass and nothing more. But there he was. Standing there with his marimba with eyes that were glowing with determination and confidence. It was the bestfriend of a guy I had known the summer before. We never really talked and he was only a year older then me. I immediately ran up and gave him a hug. He looked surprised but pleased only seconds after. He soon after wrapped it arms around me as I did him. Everyone looked at us and soon gave soft smiles. I didn't understand but soon after I did y cheeks became a dark red as I walked back to the table with my head tilted towards the floor. I sat down in the chair that has been assigned mine. You could tell I hadn't been up for long because it was still warm from me sitting in it all night. Ally came over to me and asked what that was all about and I didn't really have an answer for her. She gave a look at me an then the door into the gym. She walked with me into the gym and we ended up sitting on the opposite side of the crowd. It was an amazing view not just because they were wearing tight unitard like costumes/uniforms and most of the guys had really nice butts. Especially this one bass drummer. It took me a few minutes to realize who that bass drummer was. He was the kid I had seen the summer before and I thought was cute but didn't even think about getting involved with. We were both 15 at this time but long distance isn't meant for high schoolers. We didn't talk that night we didn't actually talk until the first or second camp in Lancaster Pennsylvania. We were soon introduced after a friend had told me a story about the summer previous to that one.
Every year Cadets2 participates in a series of Fourth of July parades. I wasn't in the corp so I walked behind the base drums carrying the water coolers. And apparently during one of the parade breaks he told my friend josh that he thought I was cute. And I admit I was pretty darn cute. But josh then told me e changed his mind because there was one point in that day when I saw my dad and yelled towards him "daddy" and my voice went really high pitched. So John said he changes his mind just because I had a high pitched voice, which isn't actually like that. After he told me this I immediately started laughing hysterically. "Call him over here and ask him if my voice has changed" so josh did just as I asked. John just rolled his eyes, got up and walked back to his table but not before he looked at me and I gave him a smile. And that's where it all began but that's not where it ended.