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love song 08

wonwoo left me and i was still stuck right there on the very same spot. i could feel my heart sink

no seulmin, you're a bad bitch.
who cares if someone hates you

you don't need people's validation to make you feel secure about yourself.

...

but why does he hate me so much!!

in frustration i scrunched my hair messing it up trying to take out my confusion

fuck it, i don't care anymore.

sighing i walked out of class as a new person who no longer gave a fuck. i made my way to our spot, the blue circular table, in the canteen to find my friends.

i avoided the cosplayers, rude popular kids and waved to the nice nerd kids and nice popular kids as i found our area

in the corner of my eye, i spotted a familiar blonde boy with his familiar cute slit eyes and cute chubby cheeks. however a rush of awkward feelings ran over me, remembering what happened between the two of us. there's no way i can even look at him in the face anymore

i reached for my pear phone in my pocket, rushing to call jun but this son of a hoe had the audacity to let it go to voice mail. why was he avoiding us all of a sudden ever since he updated his pat

making my downtow– to the spot where we usually sit, the blood drained from me seeing none other than wonwoo sitting there by himself probably waiting for jihoon to get his food and the others. just not waiting for me

there was no way in hell i'm socially ready to even talk to someone who hates my guts. i'm not trying to ruin my self confidence like that

"mins?"
a familiar, soothing called out to me. i turned round to see soonyoung with a concerned look on his face

"mins what's wrong?"

why did he have to ask me a question at the time when my brain had crashed from just seeing him. in that very second my face had turned pink. i was like that one white kid in your class who was always a light shade of red but asian instead.

"are you okay?"

i said something really smart like
"uhhhhhhh."

he leaned in towards me, analyzing my expressions
"are you ill?"

how can he just act like nothing happened and go back to normal?
whilst me on the other hand was trying my best not to explode from embarrassment

he reached his hand towards my forehead to check my temperature but i lightly pushed his hand away from me. i've learnt my lesson that skinship isn't good for my heart so i'm not letting that ruin me again.

"i-i'm fine."
my eyes darted from wonwoo, who was vibing alone at the table then back to soonyoung who was was frowning at me

he may be slow witted at times but he could sense the small changes in energy and vibes within his close friends. he noticed my quick glance at our 'friend'

"did you and wonwoo get into an argument or something ?" he asked

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