Songs That I Like

If I Didn't Believe in You ~ Jermey Jordan

there are people
and they are publishing my book
and there's a party
that they are throwing
and while you've made it very clear that you're not going,
i will be going
and that, that's done.
but what's it really about?
is it really about a party, cathy?
can we please, for a minute
stop blaming and say what you feel?
is it just that you're disappointed
to be going again to ohio?
did you think this would all be much easier
then it's turned out to be?
well then talk to me, cathy
talk to me.

if i didn't believe in you,
we'd never have gotten this far
if i didn't believe in you
and all of the 10,000 women you are,
if i didn't think you could do,
anything you ever wanted to,
if i wasn't certain that you'd come through somehow,
the fact of the matter is, cathy,
i wouldn't be standing here now.

if i didn't believe in you,
we wouldn't be having this fight.
if i didn't believe in you,
i would walk out the door and say
"cathy, you're right"
but i could never let that go
knowing the things about you i know,
things when i met you four years ago,
i knew
it never took much convincing
to make me believe in you

don't we get to be happy, cathy?
at some point down the line,
don't we get to relax without some new tourist
to push me out further from you?
and, if i'm cheering on your side, cathy,
why can't you support mine?
why do i have to feel i've committed some felony
doing what i always swore i would do?
i don't want you to hurt anymore,
i don't want you to sink,
but you know what i think?
i think you'll be fine
just hang on and you'll see
but don't make me wait till you do
to be happy with you
will you listen to me?
no one can give you courage
no one can thicken your skin
i will not fail, so you can be comfortable, cathy.
i will not lose because you can't win.

if i didn't believe in you,
and here's where the travel log ends,
if i didn't believe in you,
i couldn't have stood before all of our friends
and said, "this is the life i choose.
this is the thing i can't bear to lose."
trip is or trap us,
but we refuse to fall.
if i hadn't believed in you,
i wouldn't have loved you at all.