FANFIC - 솝

III SECRET

"Yoongi-hyung. What were you thinking!?"

"It was an accident, okay?"

The older of the two sat on a stool at the kitchen island, refusing to look up from his hangover soup.

He really shouldn't drink anymore. Not in front of other people, at least.

"That's not what I mean. This anonymous account could ruin everything we've worked for and more if you get found out!"

"No ones gonna find out!"

"They can! And what happens then, huh? How will the fans react? Did you not think of them? Did you not think of us before... before gambling with our dreams? I thought we meant more to you than your own selfish pleasures, hyung,"
The young leader exasperated.

Yoongi felt like he was delivered strong a blow to the stomach, the tingles of pain reaching up to his jaw. He finally looked up, staring at his dongsaeng for a moment before speaking, "You know that wasn't my intention.. I.. I love all of you. You should know that."

Namjoon could see the pain in his eyes. "Okay. Fine, I'll let it go just for now." His hyung gives him an appreciative smile, "But the second people get suspicious, I'll have to say I told you so."

"Thank you, Namjoon-ah."

"You're lucky that I love you, hyung," the taller male sighs. "At least answer some of my questions though?"

Yoongi nods, signaling him to go on. "Why did you start that channel in the first place?"

He pauses before answering, "Well, lets just say our busy schedule hasn't been very forgiving on my sexual frustrations. I can't just relieve myself when I have to. So, in my free time, I write down all the impossible things that'll never happen onto my notes. At some point I thought of sharing my fantasies."

He knows it's kind of pathetic, but he does wish that some of the things he wrote could come true, although that's definitely never going to happen. He can only dream. But he wasn't going to admit that outloud.

The younger nods his head at that.

"Do the boys know?" Yoongi asks. The vocal line had left early to record a subunit song, while Hoseok was shooting for his solo music video. They had the dorm to themselves for most of the day.

"No, I didn't want to tell them. I figured it isn't my place to," he replies. "They didn't really mind what happened, just blamed it on the alcohol. Did you ever plan on telling us?"

"No."

"Well, yoongi-hyung, most secrets don't always stay secret. I advise you to think about telling them sometime soon, before they find out somehow. It's better if you'd tell them yourself. You know that they'd understand eventually, don't you?"

"I guess so."