Roses, Tea, And War

I looked out of the window. I watched the spring breeze blow softly against the trees. I heard the soft birds chirping as they flew off into the distance. I smelled the rose bushes that I had planted. And not one moment of this daze did I feel peaceful.

I wanted more than silence. I wanted to be able to speak up to my brother. I want to speak up to his butler. I wanted to be able to be a person and not a doormat. I didn't want to be seen as a passerby or a just invisible air.

It's not easy to change who you are once you become somebody. Once you have a label. I've most likely been forgotten of even existing on this world. If people see me they think I'm a demon and run away. I'm not a demon. I'm a human with weird looks.

My red-pink eyes set me aside from the norm. I never met my parents. I was abandoned as a child and taken in by a passerby until I reached the age of 8. I had found my way to the Trancy manor and his there until I was 11 and Claude accepted me here because of my silence.

I want to be seen as someone fun not silent. I could smell the fresh food in the air as I jumped out of my bed and slipped on my dress. I walked down the silent hall until I reached the dining room and took my seat. Alois was sitting at the end of the table. 5 chairs down from me.

I felt odd shyness pass over me as I bit into a strawberry out of my bowl of fruit. I stared down into my bowl because I didn't dare look Alois in the eye after what her did to Hannah.

I felt eyes on my as I shyly ate a orange slice. I heard slight chuckling and my eyes shifted towards Alois but my head facing down at my bowl still to see him laughing a bit. I looked back at my fruit and took a bite of my apple.

Was he laughing at me? Did I not look presentable? Do I look stupid? Am I too shy for him? Do I look weak? Is he going to hurt me? All these questions races my mind so fast as I got up suddenly and ran down the hall to go to my room.

I felt so embarrassed that I laid on my stomach on my bed. I felt like crying but the tears wouldn't form in my eyes.