crappy things happen

lost cause

You don't expect one day to wake up and the people you love are all dead. You know they will all die someday but you don't expect to be the only survivor of a massacre.

The things you used to do you don't want to anymore. You think what if I was there, what if I could have done something, maybe I could have done this and that and they wouldn't have killed them. If I would have done those things then maybe I wouldn't be all alone. Time goes by and I feel the same. The only thing that I have learned is that you can't trust anyone.

I am now 17 and my family was all killed two years ago. I have been around the system what seems like a million times. Insanity is consuming me. I can't get out, I want someone to help me but there is know one to help. I can't trust any of them if they're the people who killed them. No I cant I wont trust. Everything's the same.

I wake up, the alarm goes off, I get up, I get dressed and I go down stairs to get food. I eat eggs and bacon but today everyone has been acting funny. There is something they are not telling me and I want to know what it is.

"Marrie can you come here for a second '' she yelled this to me while I was halfway up the stairs to my room. I rolled my eyes but yelled back

"Coming" gosh what is it this time I didn't punch one of the girls again for being stupid did I? Whatever, "you called '' gosh I said that so happily. What am I doing, faking it? She knows I hate her. I looked at the other people in the room. There is a lady who looks like she is 35. She has brown hair and blue eyes. She is so pretty. There was a man there who looked to be 45. He was taller and very strong from the looks of it but he looks like a businessman. Same brown hair but green eyes. They also have a son and he looks very happy that I am there, he looks to be 6.

" yes well this is the new foster family that is going to take you in tell your 18 in seven months."... Is she fucking kidding me. This bitch is doing it again.

" okay" It took everything i'm me to yell fuck you, I am so pissed I couldn't even keep my facial expressions in check, she knows what I want to say. I'm just going to walk away. " i'll go get my stuff then"

The lady that was there said " take your time '' little did they know that I have all my stuff pre-packed because when you're a foster kid you're always in a new home. I came back down stairs in less than five minutes.

The lady looked confused " your back already?"

I turn to her and say " when your an orphan you don't unpack because then you think its your home and it's not just false hope of one"

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