Fudge My Mentor! But I Can't.

Fudge My Mentor! But I Can't .Chapter 8

Dimples breath on me sent me into shivers. What was I doing? I pushed him back and looked at him with wide eyes. He gave me confuse look but then understood. I grabbed my shoes and got off of the cliff and ran away from him.

I could hear him come after me. His footsteps came closer to me. I tried to to out run him but I couldn't. I felt my elbow being pulled to a stop. The force of him me flying into his waiting arms. He didn't see it coming because we both fell down to the ground.  He was on top of me staring at intensely. I squirmed under him. I wanted to get away from him. 

But he stayed strong and waited for me to stop. Later I got tired and gave up. I dropped my head back to the ground. I could feel his breath hovering above my bare neck. I shivered.

"Why did you run away?."He asked me softly.

I snorted,"Why? Because we were about the make out or kiss. We can't or will never  do that. First its not right and you are with Happy Bitch. Why? Why did you do that? You have to get it through your head that we can never do that again or else we are both in so much trouble."

He stared at me with those brown eyes. I held my breath as he started to get off of me. He held a hand out to me to help me. I ignored his hand and got up my self. We stood staring at each other. So many things went through his eyes. I saw hurt but then turned into guilt .The only thing that stayed in his eyes was the love and protective of me.

I think I can never fall for him like he wants me to. He is my mentor that is all he is and will ever be to me. It doesn't matter because he is with Happy Bitch and I can't hurt the bitch. I mean I hate her for having such a happy life and everything she can have. She has a good job and a good -hot- boyfriend.

Just like they say, they always come first. That means we have to protect them and defend them no matter what. We have to put our feelings behind theirs and make them happy. No matter how much it hurts me to do this I can't fall for this man. I need to not care for him anymore but the truth is that I might be falling for him. 

Who can't fall for him? I mean he has a rocking ass body, he is one of the top guardians around here, and he will give anything up for the royals to keep them safe. That is what he looks like to me. A strong independent person. He can love but I can tell he is scared to open up and let people in. I can tell him just like that in a couple of days because he doesn't try hard enough to hide it from me. He can't do everything in the world. He can't hide forever but he does a one hell of a job of doing it. I have to what was right. Lana- hey I remember her name- comes first not me or him.

I walk to him and stop when we are just a couple of steps away from each other."Can we just forget what ever just happen and go on with our life. We can't do this because royals come first not us. Lana can't become upset because of what we did. It is part of our code to put them ahead of us. No matter what. Even if it kills us."

He stared at me with shock clearly in his eyes. What I can't be smart and kind and remember people's names? What I kind of person I would be without being bipolar. Let me tell you it is nothing without being that way.

I watched how his face changed into shocked into understanding. Finally he got what I said to him. My speech was bitching, wasn't. I smiled and nodded. He gave me a small smile.

"Well, I should get back to big party. Are you coming? Because this place is my special place to come and I don't want you to ruin it with your man cuties,"I said teasing. He laughed and started to walk along with me. The way back was much nicer and cleaner then getting here.

The moon lit up the pathway and our surroundings. There was not much noise but our feet breaking the leaves and sticks. We could still here the water coming down but was getting hard to hear when get farthing from.