Acceptance

Truth

Minsan masya marinug ang katotohanan ...

Minsan Masakit ...

Pero sakin mas gugustuhin ko na marinug lahat ng katotohan kaysa kasinungalingan ....

One day were just happy chatting ... then ill do my research that day and i can't chat back to him ...

then when i got home tired i message him but he didnt reply i thought he's tired or He's at work so ... if he read that he will surely reply...

but thats not what happened ...

He didnt chat me ... since that day!!! 1 week straight nag aalala na ko ... soo i chat and chat what hes problem may sakit ba sya or ano ...

still he's online and doesnt chat me ... so wala n kong mgawa hinyaan ko sya i give him space ... ano man yung dahilan niya i try to understand him.even i dont know how ...im holding sa sinabi niyang mahal niya ko ... i trust him i believe in him ... ;) He's faithful right?  thats what i thought?!!!

A Day that I meet A friend Our third party dati ... sya kasi yung first love ...

we talk we laugh even it a little awkward hehe ...

then we came to our topic about what we are going through ... seems we discern that i have problem so shes also have problem ...

then she tells me ... feeling niya andaming jumajudge sakanya even his own "friends" or family i think ... then when she ask.me i say " I want to give up on something i dont want anymore but still not giving up for deep reason and that "love " sooo she ask what about that??  i say ahmmm its hard to explain but its not easy to bear this kind of burden ...

she ask ... ginugulo ka pa din ba niya?

me : who? !

sya : si ano ...

me: ah no ... why you ask?

sya: nothing ...

me : friends n ulit kayo right???

sya :yup...

and i say to her ... i will say something but its a secret ok?

then she said ok ;) ... sooo i said " Me and ____ has a relationship and thats my problem i want to give up on him ... but i cant maybe bacause i love him ... haist i dont know ... hes not texting me,calling me nor messaging me ... i dont know why ...

and we talk and talk.then she said that i must not give on that relationship i feel relieve ... kasi syempre pakiramdam ko may relationship sila ei ... wala nmn pla hehe ...

then when i got home ..  i receive a text from that girl then she said

" Thank you for sharing and trusting me :) ansakit lang maloko ..."

and I received a message from him and saying sorry for causing me to expect and want to end ... then memessage ko n sana sya den he deactivate his email soo ... i call that girl why she said that statement i feel so fragile inside something inside me want to explode ... i want to scream im tooo nervous ... sobrang nanghihina ako ... then i ask her even i have an idea why she said that  sabi niya "boyfriend ko sya kami na ulit mag oone year na nga ei ... then isa rin sya sa problema ko ... " Damn i dont know what to say and act Hes a totally JERK!!!

niloko nnmn niya kmi pinagsabay nnmn niya kami """"""""""gusto niya yung "Two is better than one what the!!  .... hes not contented .... sa girl.n.bngay n lahat for him kasi mahal.na mahal.n sya tapos lolokohin at mgahahanap pa sya ng iba ... ok lng nmn sakin na sila ei ... pero anong gnwa niya sabay tlga ... tss hindi ko kayang gawin yung sacrifice ng girl for him ... ..... mahal na mahal sya ng babae pero ganun ung ginwa niya haist ...

we dont have any formal break up and i dont need that.... im deeply mad at him still now! for.everything what happened ... sya pa ang may ganang magalit at mag revenge sakin sa most unreasonable reason that id ever heard in my life ... tss

I accept the fact that hes not for me ... I accept the fact that He dont love me  .. but i cant accept hes reason still im in process of councilling ... ... and process of forgiving ... ... sobrang kapal ng mukha ng lalaki un ... but i need not to be bitter i.need to move on and not talk to him.anymore after this ... i dont want him.in my life hahahaha ...

soooo there it is ... it is not a whole story i cant say all things that happened but a true story of mine how My Love revenge on me and How he Cheat on me ...

thank you for reading maybe this is nonsense story dahil sa pagkakasulat ko ... and im sorry for that for all the typo error ... nagsususlat lng nmn ako dto to say what i want to say and what happened to my real life this just my secret account hehe ... so God bless you all ... And for  last "God is the one whos there for me ... to be healed and to forgive ... Hes the one in our life that will never ever leave us nor forsake us!!!  He loves us sooooo much!!!!

#CL