What's NEXT

PART 1

Have you ever thought about what will happen next in your life? While ME TOO! 3 kids only 21 years old.....Let me start from the beginning it all started after I was raped by cousin's baby father. That night I was scared and confused. I was only 12 years old at the time. It was my cousin's birthday. I was watching her daughter for her she was only a couple weeks old. I was watching her while my family were on the porch enjoying their time. I won't say his name because I left it in the past. But back to the story!!! I was in the room with the baby when he walked in. He looked at me and smiled. I ignored it because I figured he was drunk. He asked me " You Ever Had A Boyfriend?" I said "yeah BUT nothing serious." WTF did I really know about a relationship at 12?? He walked closer and asked me have I ever seen a penis? I stopped talking and he was standing right next to me now. So I got up, I started to walk to the door but he grabbed me. Pushed me against the wall and moved my panties to the side and then pulled his penis out. Once he was out, he beginning to rub his fingers through my panties. I started to cry but not loud because I didn't want to wake the baby up. He started to slide himself into me. I cried more and more hoping someone would come upstairs. After 3 or 4 strokes. we both heard someone coming up the stairs. He pulled out, fixed my panties and started to fix himself. But my mom walked in on him fixing himself.... SHE BLANKED!! She went from pulling me away to throwing stuff at him to hitting him. My mom looked at me and said " WTF HAPPENED" and I told her "NOTHING." Just because I wanted to protect my cousin. She had just had their first baby and it was her day. Even thou I was hurting and wanted to drop I told my moms "NOTHING HAPPENED." Scared and confused!! She knew I was lying she took me in the back room and called my dad. Instead of them comforting me telling me they were going to be there. I got smacked a couple times my dad told me he was going to beat my ass if I didn't tell the truth. And that's what made me stick to my story that "NOTHING HAPPENED." Even thou a lot happened and I was hurting and scared and just wanted to wash and go to bed. My moms made me sleep in the room with her that night. The morning I got up and went to the bathroom. I went to pee and there was blood in my panties. I got up and I was dripping blood. I quickly got in the shower to wash myself, while I was in there I cried and cried. I justed wanted to hide myself but I couldn't we all stayed in the same house! When I got out the shower I went to my room and layed there I fell asleep within 30 minutes. Almost a week later he was in the newspaper for rape.... TO BE CONTIUED