What's NEXT

PART 2

All hell broke loss after they seen that. My aunt and cousin got into a fight because my cousin was taken her baby father's side. Because of course she didn't believe it they had just had their first baby and she was in love. So I understood a little bit. We all had our dumb I'm in love moments.. I know I have! He had to leave my aunt didn't want him in the house it was two young girls in the house. If his PO knew he was around females he would go back to jail. But my aunt or nobody in the house knew how to get in contact with the office or his PO. You would think that now that all of this was out in the air I would come out and tell them what happened... But I didn't I felt better that he was gone but I was still hurt and felt like I deserved it. I was young and didn't know much. A couple months later they moved out. He came to help my cousin move their tuff and my baby cousin stuff to their new place. I never felt so relaxed and at peace when I seen him walk out that door but at the same time I was sad because I didn't know what would happen to my little cousin! While stuff was getting better in the household I still didn't want to be there I had to walk pass the room everyday and I would stand there and see everything play back even thou the room was different I could still see everything that was in there in the same order it was in. A few weeks later my mom told me that she had found a place for us. I was soooo happy I started crying lol. We moved in our new house like two or three weeks after she told us. Once we moved I had my own room. It was just my two brothers, my mom and me it couldn't get no better than that! My dad moved in with us two weeks later. I was so happy I was in a good school, my grades were good. I had a best friend we were unbreakable. we joined the basketball team together. on weekends and school breaks her mom would take us to her hometown. My best friend showed me where she used to live, all her old friends and her friend she still kept in contact with. We slept at her house when we were down there. she had three brothers two younger than her and one older then her. The first night was the best I got along with everybody, they loved me. We danced, was singing and playing around. We were all up until 3 o'clock. We were back and forth down there for a goof six months I started to have a crush on the brother and he did too. My best friend and me went up there for the summer. THAT'S THE TIME I ALMOST HAD SEX WILLINGLY!!! The night we went over there was like any other night we would dance, play games, etc. But that night he would only dance with me, he sat next to me when we played games and once we started watching movies he laid on the couch with me. Everybody stayed up until maybe 1. We all went to sleep early that night. the girls went in the sister room and the boys were in the little brother's room. He had his own room. But anyways he was still up while everybody else went to sleep. He came where I was in his sister room and woke me up. We went to his room and started talking for a little bit but I was sleepy so I kept falling asleep. He started to kiss my neck and then turned my face and kissed me on the lips I kissed him back. We started rubbing on each other like we really knew what we were doing or at least I didn't lmao. He pulled his clothes off and then took mine off. He went down and started licking my COOCHIE CAT BITCHH... That was my first time every feeling something like that. I could hear myself about to say ' I LOVE YOU' but I caught myself lls. He came up kissed me again. He got on top of me and started to slide into me but by the time he got the head in I was pushing him out one cause he was big asf for a 17 year old and two because it brought memories back. I started crying and told him I couldn't do it. He was confused cause I was crying. He looked at me and said ' don't cry we don't have to do anything, I'm not rush." He didn't understand and I didn't expect him to unless I told him what happened so I did. He was the first person I told everything to I didn't even tell my best friend and she was everything to me.. he told me I was strong and he understood why I wasn't ready. We laid in the bed in the dark and he rubbed my back until I fell asleep. The next morning we cooked breakfast together and we all went to the park to play ball they didn't know I was the shit at the three point line. two weeks later we packed up to head back to Savannah. When I got home I found out that my moms and dad broke up. My moms put him out. My dad went to go stay with his uncle. Me and I mom stayed to fall out about a lot of stuff I was young and disrespectful. ( my moms didn't deserve none of that). But I went to stay with my dad. Everything was good I was still getting back and forth to school. We were at his uncle's house for a month and then went to stay at my nana's house I loved it there. It was one day I had came home for school I was watching tv and my dad came in from work. We were talking and he was saying that his co-workers and himself were talking about maury it was an episode where fathers were sleeping with their daughters. I said "EWW daddy that's nasty!" He looks at me and says " YOU WOULDN'T SLEEP WITH YUR POPS?" I was disgusted he caused all that bullshit and had my uncle beat up my cousin's baby father and now you sitting here asking me would I fuck you?? I was angry, hurt and felt like that might have been all I was good for. I slept in the living room that night. My nana woke me up and asked me " what was wrong?" Once again I told somebody that could of help me "NOTHING.." I told her " I was just ready to go home to my moms." I left later that day and went back to my mom's house. When I got there I seen her in the bed depressed and just hurt I hugged her and told her I was sorry and that I loved her. I told her wat really happened at the house that night and we cried for 30 minutes straight. She called the police and we made a report together. the police officer gave us a case number, took the report and left. She asked me " would I be up for moving out of Savannah" I responded " yes." She told me tht it would be our new start. I loved the thought of it.... PART 3 MOVING TO CHARLOTTE NORTH CAROLINA COMING SOON!