Alone, and trying.

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My stomach churned and i clutched at the open wound when rem dropped me, she laughed and kicked me straight in the face and i heard a large CRACK!, my nose stung and started to bleed, I turned over onto my side and fell onto the ground with a small thump. Crawling slowly over to the dagger, I pressed my hand onto his wrist and felt a heartbeat. I smiled, falling down next to his side and blacking out.

I awoke to the smell of smoke, cigarette smoke directly. I looked up dagger, he was covered in blood, and holding onto a little pink necklace, it had a heart in the middle and pearls around it, it seemed to have the carving of a "d+l" on it, he opened the heart and started at the picture on the inside, sniffling and quietly starting to sob. His fingers trembled and he put the necklace in his pocket, puffing out smoke and he put the cigarette out. I groaned when i tried to get up, my stab wound healed up and when i turned i saw them all, ian, gertrude, oliver, gee, lilac, seto.. Each one of them layed down and bloodied up, Dagger turned to look at me and he sighed.

"Were the only ones left. Remirez got them all, and she cut off all our magic once I healed you." he sniffled and rubbed his nose, staring down at Lilac, her hair once well kept and beautiful now messy, covered in dirt and blood and her makeup smeared all over her face.

"Oh." i looked over to dagger, getting up and sitting next to him. He leaned on me and I heard him start to cry again, I looked down and said that he had a pretty severe gash in his side, I quickly pulled him onto my lap and stared down at him.

"Your hurt, your hurt pretty bad-- your going to bleed out and I don't know if I can be alone.."

I felt tears prick at my eyes and he put his hand on my arm, gripping it hard.

"Veronica you have to be strong. You need to be strong, for all of us." he coughed and reached into his pocket, giving me a photo. I took it and looked at it with misty eyes, it was a family photo.. Me and Gertrude were kissing, Oliver held onto ians hand and leaned onto him. Gee was on ians Shoulders her hands in the air, Seto was reading as usual in the background, and Lilac was hugging Dagger. I smiled and put it into my back pocket before hugging dagger. He gave me a weak hug back before I felt him go limp. I looked down at him and whimpered, shaking him, anything, anything at all to get him to wake up

"Dagger please-- Please don't leave me like this, i can't stay here alone." i looked over to our house, the front door wide open and a black cat sitting on the porch. I squinted, and the cat quickly ran off into the woods, blood dripping from my broken and bruised nose, continuing to drip onto my lily white hands.

5:06, pm.

I lugged Oliver into one of the deep holes I had just dug in the backyard, tears streaming down my dirty face and my hands trembling with a slight fear that Rem would come back for me now, instead. I grabbed the shovel and started to bury the body, the dirt covering up the old memories i had with oliver, no one else, just oliver. I remember holding her as she cried over some stupid breakup, or if ian was lost and i would her find him. The little moments when we fought out in the front yard and I always ended up winning.

At this point all the dirt was gone, and Oliver was buried. I turned around to see the next body i had to bury and i burst out crying and wanting her to just get up and laugh at me, to laugh and say that it was all just a cruel prank, that she loved me or that it was a silly little thing to get back at me for stealing her stupid blanket. I stood there and waited awhile for her to get up, for dagger and lilac to get up, for everyone to just get up and laugh at me for being stupid and burying Oliver. I gently laid down right next to Gertrude, putting her hand in mine and cuddling up close to her dead corpse before I had to officially part with her. I closed my eyes and imagined a warmth that would warm me up from the inside out. I smiled, looking up at her cold pale face and I thought of a huge idea, getting up harshly before grabbing onto gertrudes arms and dragging her into the house, down into the cold basement. I ran over to a wall and took a computer chip off a hook, along with some sewing items and a couple tools. I opened up gertrudes pocket and snatched out the old broken and no longer colorful chip, placing the new one in and screwing it into place, the light buzzed on and I smiled, looking into her eyes as they gradually opened. I sewed her pocket shut and pulled her over to me, her eyes looking into mine and her mouth contorting into a smile. I looked up to the bullet hole in her head, I frowned and covered it with a strand of her hair before I gave her a small but meaningful kiss, but she didn't even move. All she could do was blink and breathe lightly, she averted her eyes to a spot on the staircase, a small spot with only a tiny bit of light shining on it. I turned and looked over to the spot, the same cat sat there, watching us and wondering what we were even doing. I blinked and then it was gone, just as soon as it was there yet again. Gertrude grasped onto my face, pulling me down to her face and giving me a kiss, i was choked up, i kissed her back and gave her a huge hug, holding onto her like i would never see her again, but this time i took it so much more serious, i didn't let go at all. I heard her sigh before going limp in my arms, i let her go and stared, knowing that the chip was only temporary, and her time was long gone.

--the present time, after the incidents.

In the kitchen I sorted through buckets and cabinets of food, just looking for a single piece of cat chow that i know we had because Oliver always liked the chicken flavored crunchy cat food. I smiled when i found one last bag of it and poured a bit into a little bowl, carefully I walked out onto the front porch and placed it down for the cat, so it would come back and maybe I could catch the little shit.

I sat there on the porch for a good 5 minutes waiting, before i grabbed a box of old cigarettes out of my back pocket, after raiding all my friends' bodies for anything i didn't want to bury them with, i had taken some of dagger's old cigarettes and to be honest.. I wanted to try out what they were like.

I took out one of gertrude's lights she gave me and lit the tip of the cigarette, bringing it to my mouth and inhaling. I coughed out the first time, but after a couple inhales the nicotine clouded my mind and the thoughts of my friends that were lingering had gone, my guard down and my head leaned back against the railing of the porch. That's when i felt a hand on my shoulder, a cold and big hand then grabbed the back of my hair and pulled my head down to face them.

Rem smiled, taking the cigarette and inhaling, quickly putting it out on my left cheek. I winced, flicking her hand away and the burn stinging my skill with a blissful amount of pain.

"So, i see you buried the bodies and cleaned your home." she gripped and pulled on my hair even harder, my eyes rolled back into my head and i bit my tongue lightly.

"How does not having any of your friends feel?" Rem stroked my face and then turned my chair around to face her, my eyes staring into hers with pure hatred.

She grinned even wider and her hands traced a large scar around my neck, she traced her fingers then too the fresh burn on my face and pressed her thumb down hard into it, causing it to bleed more than it was before. Rem smiled and shape shifted into one of Gertrude's later looks-- black leather jacket, white shirt and black denim ripped jeans, with those god awful combat boots with spikes.. Her hair pulled back into a messy ponytail, the red highlights in her hair were glowing in the sunset. I pulled away to look at the glorious sight in front of me, the thought having gertrude with me one more time clouded my mind and i grabbed Rem and pulled her over the railing to me, spinning us around so had better leverage to my knife, playing along with her little games i sat down onto her lap and Rem grinned even wider with happiness. Rem leaned in close to my face, her breath lingering on my face and her eyes flickering to my lips and then to my eyes over and over and over, i smiled and went to grip the knife in my back pocket, when my eyes shifted to the food bowl on the porch and saw the little black cat eating graciously, i leaned away from the kiss and i got off quickly scooping up the cat.

"Finally! I got it.." i smiled, hoping off Rem and picking up the little feline.

"Come on.. Come back over here-- we're not done." Rem grasped my arm and smiled. I stopped dead in my tracks and the realization of what could have achieved came to mind, i felt tears come to my eyes.

i stared at Rem and i sighed. "When i get my friends back-- gertrude will--" 

"SHE'S DEAD, VERONICA." Rem stood up with all of her 6 foot tall might and stared down at me. Tears spilled from my eyes and I held onto the little cat, the cat hissing at Rem and I shivered when a breeze pushed by us, rems hair flying around her in the wind, quickly shape shifting back to her regular look.

"She's dead and you need to move on." rem spat, frowning at me and disappearing. I looked around me to be sure nothing was watching me, and walked into the house locking the door and locking all the windows before even considering sleep.