L e t M e G o

Prolouge

"Why are you here, Lana?" This question wasn't rare in my mind. It appeard often, and still I never seemed to find an answer. Why am I here? Why not leave?

My name is Lana Devoran and I made my choice. I placed myself perfectly in the middle of the one-sided road, as I heard the sound of a car in the distance and I closed my eyes while I waited. My heart quickened it's pace, beating harder and more powerful inside my chest. My palms were sweaty. I wasn't afraid to die. I was rather looking forward to it. I couldn't stand my mom's disappointment any longer, or my dad's disgusting affairs. I couldn't stand being surrounded with so much unhappiness and hatred. I couldn't stand living. I couldn't stand the fact that I felt absolutely everything and nothing at the same time. The voices in my head didn't make it any better. They analyze all things and often make me go mad. Constantly haunting me, reminding me of things I would rather forget. I was so tired. So extremely tired. And no matter how much sleep I got, that kind of tiredness never faded, it just became stronger.

I could see flashes of light from the car through my eyelids. "I'm not afraid of de,-"

Pain flooded through me as I hit uneven ground harshly and the air was knocked out of me as a body followed and painfully landed on top of me. What the hell just happened?! I tried to budge but my head hurt like shit and my back was covered in open scraps, due to the gravel.

"Oh my god! Are you crazy?" A deep, raspy but still hysterical voice yelled from above me. I opened my eyes to stare into a pair of brown, frantically ones. His hair was brown and messy. My vision tried focusing but everything was blurry and unclear, so I couldn't make out his face properly. But whoever he was, he just ruined everything. And I already didn't like him.

"Maybe" I whispered with disappointment. I wasn't dead. I was just in more pain. I didn't know humans could feel this much. My body felt numb, my brain felt numb, my heart was numb.

"Heyheyhey, no no, stay awake; stay with me" I heard his voice as if it echoed between mountains. All the words mixed together and my eyes felt like weights that I did not have the power to lift. His silhouette doubled before my eyes finally closed.

And that's all I remember before everything went black. Just not the lasting way I wanted it to.