Secret Confessions {One Shots}

i'm sorry

I stared into the distance while tears are streaming down my cheeks, like raindrops of the rain, never ending

I remembered the good times where we always laugh at small things. The moment that only happiness is the thing that kept our strong bond and no one can break it

But because of one mistake that i made, i made everything fell apart. I broke the strong bond and happiness that bind us altogether

I can't keep the thoughts anymore in my head. I felt like everything will make me shatter and explode in tears

I walked through the empty hallways and felt my knees getting weak as the tears streaked in my eyes

My chest hurt as if someone reached inside my chest and clutched it tightly making an unexplainable pain for me to feel

All the pain that i've been enduring are slowly eating me up. The tears that i kept holding in broke free the moment my knees touched the cold floor

I hugged my knees and cried softly in the empty hallway...alone

I was kinda used to being alone now, it wasn't even a new feeling for me. I am a veteran of feeling alone and sad

As i cried softly i wrote something on a piece of paper, one of my secret confessions

"I'm sorry i'm a failure as a friend. I'm sorry i'm not good enough for you guys to stay by my side. I'm sorry i always hurt you because of my behavior i kept throwing at you. I know i'm not perfect but even if i'm like this, i still loved you. I always cared about you so even if i get hurt sometimes, i ignore it and just showed a fake smile. But there is always a saying that your shouldn't bottle up your feelings because once your full, you might explode..."

Once i finished, i smiled in defeat because once again i wrote one of my secret confessions

I cleared my thoughts and once again realized.... all was fading