[UNDER REVISION] Just Say Yes || RoyalChaos Fanfic [ChilledxZe] [BoyxBoy]

《5》 Love is Not A Choice

Chilled's View

My face was still pretty bruised from my fight two days ago with that man and his damn girlfriend. Ze had been going in and out getting me things I needed. It must be over sympathy or something because he won't quit till I'm healed. But ever since that small, accidental kiss between us, he hasn't been the same. He's been avoiding me much more. His excuse is he can't see me like this. Though he might be telling the truth, I can tell it's a lie.

Just remembering the kiss is amazing. I can still feel his soft lips pressed against mine, fitting perfectly against one another, my lips... God I wish Ze would only let me do that once more, but this time a bit longer, I want it to be real.

I sighed, running my fingers through my hair. "I guess a dream is a dream. Not like it'll ever be real... Ze doesn't feel the same way I do." I muttered, sighing in defeat.

"What was that..?" Ze asked, with wide eyes, as he stood in the kitchen doorway shocked beyond belief. My eyes went wide.

Shit! He wasn't supposed to hear that! "Ze! Hear me out, please!" I shouted, sticking my hand out, motioning for him to stay and not run.

Ze was flustered, his face glowing a bright red, "W-Wait... What do you mean by that, C-Chilled?" Ze muttered, taking a step closer, glancing at his feet.

I sighed. How the hell do I explain this? The way I feel for him? He wasn't supposed to know yet. I really didn't think about this happening like this.

I opened my mouth to speak, but then shut it quickly. I have no idea what to say. My face grew hot, "W-Well, you see... I was just talking about my dreams! Y-Yeah, that's it... so nothing to worry about. Carry on." I said, fidgeting nervously. I turned around to run, but before I even could, I felt him grab my wrist, stopping me.

"No, you're lying. I can tell. We haven't been best friends for no reason, Chilled. I know you... and you're hiding something." He went on, tightening his grip on my wrist. The look he was giving me caused me to melt under his beautiful green eyes. I hung my head in slight shame. Would he even like me for who I am once I tell him I'm... gay?

"I-I I can't... You won't like me after I tell you." I said, softly, shutting my eyes tightly. Ze let go of my wrist, and then wrapped his arms around my waist, nuzzling his face in my neck. I blushed a deep red, "Z-Ze?" I asked, worried why he suddenly was hugging me. He never did something like that before.

Ze looked up at me with tears in his eyes. He was struggling to hold them in from what I could see. I frowned. Ze...

"Chilled, w-why can't you just tell me what's w-wrong?!" He shouted, through tears cascading down his face. I winced. "Can't y-you see I'm worried about y-you? I can't help but think about you all the time, knowing that I might have f-feelings for you! Dammit, Chilled!" He cried out, pounding against my chest lightly.

He had feelings for me? I grinned behind the small smile on my face. Ze just now confessed he had some sort of feelings for me! I let that grin show as I grabbed Ze's arms, stopping him from hitting me. He looked at me, a small, playful glare on his face. "What?!" He snapped, trying to break out of my grip.

I smiled at him as I leaned in closer, or noses touching, breath hitting one another. He froze. "Just shut up and let your feelings take over, Ze..." I muttered, closing the small gap between up. My lips stayed still against his, till I moved mine. Ze kissed back after a few seconds. It was getting hotter each second and the longer the kiss lasted. I broke the kiss, panting slightly. Ze was the same, but he looked more dazed and flustered than I probably did.

"C-Chilled..." Ze panted out, leaning against my chest. "I t-think I like you more than I thought I did, more than a friend..."

I smirked, "Good, because I've felt this way over you for awhile now. I'm really happy you feel the same for me." I said placing my lips on his once more, the love I felt for him taking over.

His arms then wrapped around my neck, pulling our closer and deepening the kiss. I nibbled at his bottom lip, begging for entrance. He gasped at the contact, letting me in. My tongue roamed every inch of his mouth, making sure I didn't miss a spot.

He let out a soft moan, "Chilled..."

I backed away, "I'm sorry, Ze... I didn't mean to go so far." I apologized. Man, holding in this urge to fuck him right here, right now, is getting really hard.

Ze smiled at me still a bit dazed. "I-It's fine." He smiled, letting his arms go loose around my neck while my arms trailed down to his waist, holding on softly. "Chilled..."

I hummed, "Yeah?"

Ze bit his lip, "I l-love you." He confessed, blushing lightly as he hid his face in my neck.

I grinned cheekily and pecked his cheek. "I love you too, Ze."

Now that I think about, now is the perfect time to do this. I interlocked our hands together, squeezing his softly. "Ze... Can I ask you something?" I asked, placing my forehead on his.

He nodded, "Yeah, go ahead."

"Steven, will you be my boyfriend?" I asked, shocking him even further by using his real name. To me, using a nickname while proposing something romantic like this ruins the moment. So why not say his real name? I raised an eyebrow, waiting patiently for an answer.

Ze had a gigantic smile on his face, "Yes, of course I'd like to. Who am I kidding? I'd love to!" Ze exclaimed, kissing me passionately, which threw me off guard. After a few seconds, I shut my eyes and kissed back just as eagerly.

Now I had Ze. He was in my arms, my care, and my heart. The one I loved is finally mine after years of throwing hints around. Ze, Steven, you don't understand how happy I am to have you beside me from now on.

We both then parted for air, the both of us panting softly. "God, I love you so much, Ze." I said, running my hands along his sides.

"I know, Chilly willy. I love you too." He said. Ze's smile fell a bit, "But how are we going to explain this to the Derp Crew and everyone else? What if they don't understand and hate us?" He asked, showing clear signs he was worried.

I smiled softly. Running my hands through his hair, "Don't worry so much, Ze. They won't hate us for loving each other... I promise you that. They'll understand. Besides, Minx is lesbian and they don't mind one bit, so what gives you the idea they'll hate us?" I said, curious to his small assumption. It was true, everything I said. The crew wouldn't, well shouldn't hate us for who we are...

"Nothing. I trust you, Chilled. I really do hope you're right." He muttered, burying his face in the crook of my neck.

I pet his head, running my fingers through his head, calming him a bit. "I will be, don't worry, Ze. Everything will be fine." I assured him.

We don't choose who we want to love. Love isn't a choice. If it were, all of us would be in complete chaos. Love is a deep feeling you hold for someone, someone very special to you. For me, that person is Ze.

If we had to choose whom we wanted to love, it wouldn't be real.

But I can tell you my love for him wasn't a choice, no.

My love for Ze is real.