I used to be the type of girl who wasn't popular but wasn't unpopular... Just average. I'd sit with classmates at lunch but wouldn't talk much. I guess I was socially awkward in a way. I had a few friends I would watch movies with and go out. Sometimes I could actually be myself around them. But one by one, they all had other friends and I was left alone. When I walked down the halls I would have my head downcast and ignore my surroundings. That was just middle school. Few weeks later my parents dropped a bomb. I'm moving out of Chicago Out To Orlando, Florida! I've heard stories of that place. Oh, I was terrified.
After sometime, I decided I would change my perspective. I dyed my hair from a lame blonde to a midnight black with multi-colored streaked in it. I got rid of my glasses and put on some contacts. I looked in the mirror and gasped! I forgot I had my grandmas Moon-Light blue eye's! Oh, I looked really pretty! It gave me confidence. As soon as I walked into that High School I instantly knew this wasn't for me and I would NEVER fit in. I shrunk. But soon a girl named Blaze found me and complimented my eye's and hair. The first time in YEARS I smiled. She asked for my schedule and smiled too! We had 4 classes together and the same lunch period! We became fast friends in that first month.
One day we were sitting in lunch talking about what movie we should see that weekend, when I saw him. Oh, he looked like a dark knight. His blue-black hair, his skin was creamy pale, his eye's were the most beautiful blue I've EVER seen. I wanted him right then and there. To be mine forever. To hold his hand, to gaze in his eye's day and night, to smile and feel secure, to kiss him and never want to let go. Problem was..... I didn't even know him! How could I feel this way and not even know his name?
Month's past and I surprisingly became very popular in that school. When I walked down the halls everyone smiled and greeted me. Some guy-friends ran up and hugged me. None, of course, was him... I has him in my first period and 6th period. I would sometimes see him looking at me in the strangest way. But then again, he did that to plenty of other girls too.
I had this guy-best friend, that I would hang out with all the time. People sometimes thought he dated. Sometimes I wondered if we ever would. But on a friday afternoon, another bomb was dropped. We were sitting near this lake we would always hangout by, under a tree. He was playing his guitar and I listened. He asked me during school to help him out with a song he was having trouble with, and of course I agreed. He painstaknly played the song and I loved it! Out of nowhere I started singing to it! He was surprised and had a glittered look in his eye's while I sang. His firey red hair swayed in the breeze and his green eye's sparkled as the song kept going. He took out his phone and recorded me singing so he could write down the lyrics later. The song ended and we both looked at each other and smiled. He put his guitar down and gave me a hug and a pat on the back. We started fooling around and he started chasing me around. I climbed the tree we were under. Out of nowhere, my foot slipped! I screamed as I hanged from a branch. Ray came under me and he told me to let go so he could catch me. I wasn't eager to jump but I trusted him. I let go and he caught me. He smiled as I was cradled in his arms, and started laughing because I had twigs and leaves in my hair. I playfully started to wrestle with him and before you knew it, we were on the ground with me on top... Our lip's very close. I was shocked and I didn't move. He still had that glitter in his eye's and we waited. I didn't know what to do! He wasn't the guy I wanted but I guess I did like him... He raised his head and kissed me! Oh, his lips were soft and as I kissed him back it seemed perfect! We kept on kissing and soon it got pretty heated. My hands were in his hair and neck. His hangs were on my back and in my shirt. I loved the way he played his hands over my body. Never really intrugent. Soon we stopped. Smiled. And laughed. We held hands and left the lake to go home.
........ What I didn't know, was that the guy I liked saw the whole thing...
Me and Ray became boyfriend and girlfriend. Though there were times that I felt what we were doing was wrong. Very wrong. But I also felt stupidly in love with him. He treated me like the love of his life. Sadly, I couldn't do the same. I still felt feelings toward the guy. But, I STILL didn't know his name. I asked blaze and she said "THAT GUY?! Man, you have Ray! Ray, bro! You shouldn't worry about a guy who is such a loner.", yet I felt as though I'm walking in a dream each time I pass him in the halls. When attendance was called in first period, I NEVER caught his name. Not even when I listened closely. I never heard a "Here." From him...
