im so lonely.
i don't want to be lonely but i guess i am.
hhhh.
Happy birthday to me. Today was the day where my mum looked at me and said 'Oh my god she's ugly.' well i don't know that but all i know is that my mum does not like me at all.
I walked in to school with a big badge on my jumper, the badge had big bold writing saying 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY'. I walked into the school cafeteria and saw my ex-best friend, she wasn't paying attention to anything, she was just looking down on her phone. I sat down near her and that some what caught her attention. She looked at me and rolled her eyes. Last year, she got me a big gift and i was happy she was my best friend, well now she isn't. "Happy birthday, will that make you stop staring at me?" My ex-best friend snapped, i didn't realize i was staring at her. "Thank you." She looked back on her phone again.
I stayed seated in the cafeteria. I wanted to cry so damn hard but i'd look weak to everyone.
Then a girl walked into the cafeteria.
Her name was Alice.
Alice doesn't like me.
Neither do i like Alice.
Alice has a memorable look. Her face screamed powerful, she had so much power and so many followers.
I remember being friends with alice, i used to like her but she said no. I continued to like her and she took in the attention, the whole thing was really one-sided, I ended up dating someone and she was fuming and everyone left me after that. i haven't moved on, i wish i did.
I left the cafeteria and went outside of school, i'm skipping this bullshit school. Sally was with Alice and sally hated my guts too. I went to the nearest store and bought a cheap cake. I went home and got dressed up in my pyjamas. I sighed and put on the candles.
"Happy birthday to me, i'll be lying in bed eating cake and poison."
I sat in bed and set fire to the candles.
"Happy birthday to me, i'll be crying in bed watching frozen."
i put on Frozen II on my TV and blew my candles in tears.
"I'm so lonely, I'm old and lonely."
I cried and cried and cried. I threw the cake onto the floor and cried.
"I'm so sad, i'm getting scared and sad."
Happy birthday to me.
