The One That Got Away [DOYOUNG] ✔️

Chapt 3. - sorry

TRIGGER WARNING: mentions of suicide

A few days had passed, I've been feeling depressed for no reason. Some days I feel happy, some days I feel really depressed. It's confusing. I'm alone, again. I sometimes hate it when I'm alone, those thoughts are killing me whenever I'm feeling depressed. How I wish doyoung would be here by my side right now. Too bad he is busy right now. I did everything I can do to distract myself to not get crazy over those thoughts. I can't seem to control myself lately, and also the fact that Doyoung doesn't know this side of me yet makes my life even harder. I don't wanna make him worry so I'm just not gonna tell him about this. A few minutes of trying so hard to distract my mind, I started to lose my mind. I stood up, grabbed my scissors and cut my hair shorter. After I finally realized what I had done to my beautiful long hair, I put the scissors away and cried. I can't believe I've done this, I look even uglier now! Doyoung wouldn't like it! I'm such a mess. I don't know how to confront him or even anyone!

After almost felt like an hour debating whether I should text doyoung about my hair or not, Doyoung texted me saying "Raebinie? What are you doing right now? I'm free now~ let's face time~ I miss you and I need someone that can make me feel very happy 🥰"

Okay, this is bad.

I replied to him " I don't think I can face time you right now. I have some problems right now. I'm very sorry Doyoung ah"

after a minute, he responded "that's unfortunate. Alright then 😞😞😞"

I felt really bad, ugh I'm such a worst person! I hate myself so much! I deserve to die.

I honestly want to disappear from this world. But I'm worried about Doyoung. I don't wanna leave him like that. Besides, he is the one that makes me really happy and always by my side when no one is there for me. I'm grateful for that.

After a few minutes, I finally feel at ease. Despite having a depressive episode, I'm calm right now and that's a good thing. After a few hours, I eventually fell asleep.

The next day

I hid my hair underneath the hood. Everyone kept staring at me for no reason. As if it's their first time seeing me wearing a hoodie. Well, I do act lowkey suspicious that's understandable. As I was trying to study at the cafe, a guy suddenly approached me. "Raebin? Is that you?". Turns out it was Doyoung.

"um yeah?" I looked at him.
"Why are you wearing a hoodie? And why are you hiding your hair? Is there something wrong with your hair?" he asked
"um nope. I'm just trying a new style! Hehe" I laughed awakwardly

He grabbed the hoodie hood off of my head and was shocked to see my short hair. "why is your hair short?" he asked calmly

"I'm just tired of my long hair. I wanna try something new. Is it okay for you?" I said with a smile
"of course! You look cute with that hair!! I really love it!!" his eyes became the heart eyes emoji and then hugged me. I felt relieved.

"Raebin?! Is that you? You cut your hair?!" Riley came out of nowhere with Yejeong.
"you look very cute with short hair!" said Yejeong
"thank you" I smiled and satisfied with my hair.

"alright, me and Yejeong have to go now. See you later Raebin~" he pinched my cheeks and left the place with Yejeong.

"gosh both of you are so cute!!" said Riley. Then, we studied together for our upcoming exams.

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While I was waiting for Doyoung, I overheard Doyoung's conversation with Yejeong. I guess they mention something about me and dating? I didn't quite catch that. I had a bad feeling about it but I just brushed it off. After a few minutes of waiting, Doyoung came out with a sudden expression on his face. He seemed sad and mad at the same time. "what's wrong baby?" I asked. "oh nothing" he replied. I know he is lying, I can feel it. I just hope, It's not something serious. "Let's go on a date today! It's been so long since we hung out. Let's go to my favorite place" He pulled me to somewhere that is very hidden.