Queen 👑 | Book 2 | Jungkook X Reader | Jungkook FF | ✔️Complete

Apologie

" What's wrong with them? " I asked blatantly.

Jin's face looked disterbed yet worried, was there something wrong with my eyes, and if so what?

" Jungkook, carry Y/N to the front room. I'll be there in a second. " Jin demanded.

Jungkook nodded and picked you up bridal style, walking out of the kitchen and into the front room, laying you down onto the sofa gently seeming to still be in pain. Once he had put you down Jungkook left and came back a few minutes later with a chair that he stationed by the sofa, it seemed like he wanted to keep guard, just in case something happened, or if you were going to go to sleep again.

It was flattering to say the least, Jungkook acted like a prince toward you, always giving his all to show you how much he cares about you. Helping you get through the tough times when no one would believe you, helping you with your pain, both mentally and physically, he was the sweetest person you had ever met, but... That didn't change the things he said to you that day, he was out of line, nothing he could do could repent for what he did and what had happened. Now, because of him, all the hard work he put in to help me open up, went all the way back down the drain as the only person I thought I could trust with everything and without fearing rejection, made me feel as if I couldn't trust anyone anymore.

Taking a deep breath in and out, I started to think about Jungkook's recent behaviour, the weird possessive side of him, the attractive side, the seductive side, the worried, afraid, sad, cute and lovable sides of him were all a beautiful masterpiece to behold. I wonder what was up with him, and myself too I guess, for some reason I've been conflicted the past few months. I remember feeling this way before, but it was toward someone else, someone who has now disappointed me and made me loath for a while, but now this feeling is blooming anew I feel as if I've betrayed someone or rather just fallen out will then and instead associated it with someone else.

Someone who I thought deserved it, but....

I don't know, I just don't know if I could forgive them...

I don't think I could forgive Jungkook.

" Y/N~ " Jungkook whined.

" yes. Jungkook? " I responded.

" I'm sorry... About the other day, I didn't mean get angry and shout, it was a terrible misunderstanding on my part. '' Jungkook started taking a deep breath in.

Did he read my mind?

I started to get annoyed rather than listen to him.

" N-no I didn't ready your mind. '' Jungkook said in a hurry, trying not to create another misunderstanding.

" Then how did you know I said that? " Jugnkook blushed a light shade of pink, it was most probably because he got found out " Look Jungkook I know--

" Wait, let me speak first. I want to explain myself " Jungkook took a breath in and started to explain himself  " That day, when we all ate dinner together, I don't think you noticed it but I was scared--

Scared? Scared of what?

" I was overwhelmed. By the time know you had collapsed that day I had come back home late because I was looking for you all around the Uni, I knew you wanted space but I didn't think you would take as long as to stay away from me all day, so once I realised that you weren't there I thought you must of been with Yoongi, so I rushed home. I didn't think you were safe with him so I rushed home to rip him off you and out of danger, but instead I was told you had collapsed in the morning and Yoongi had brought you back home. I was devastated. When I heard that it was like my lungs got ripped out, I felt useless, like my purpose was butchered by convenience and convenience alone. I was supposed to be protecting you, can you imagine how I felt when the realisation of you getting hurt hit me? But not only that but for Yoongi to rescue you and not me!? I was fuming that day. " Jungkook stated. " Then, after you woke up a few hours later, when you told us what was happening in your dream,  you couldn't help but feel more helpless. I felt like a hammer with no head, I felt like I couldn't protect you and that sooner or later, my mistake will mean... Will lead to something.... More horrible than just you fainting. So I ended dinner early and went to bed to think about it and as you know you came to my room a few minutes later to cheer me up. When you came in, I wanted to show you how much you meant to me. With the littler words I said how much you mean to me, but you seemed confused so I stopped. I was confused why I was acting that way too, but I've realized now. "