Random memories, maybe vent..

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by Opalove07

by Opalove07

SteVe- welcome to the darker side of this user! Skip if you want, I honestly can't believe I'm telling the whole world this but won't tell my friends..

Just a minute ago I was spacing off and heard like a howl. It terrified the shit out of me because my dogs are sleeping. It brought back a memory or just a random dream.

I used to have a bunk bed, but I got a dog, so we decided on just flipping the thing over instead of buying a new bed. It was like that up to last summer when I had a break down. I'll explain what happened there later. I constantly redo my room, and at this point in time it was facing the window, like how I have it now. In that little memory I remember having my old dresser stuff with things everywhere, my old bed desk and everything was there, so I think it took place before I had to change schools.

It makes me get emotional and really upset to think of anything before 4th grade, to much sin for young me cri. Back to the memory though. Everything was dark, at the time I was able to sleep without my door open and there was stuffed animals everywhere. I tried to remember wtf was happening, and I guess it was a cleaning day. I mean, I still had my carpet in the memory so.

In the thing I started hearing wolves howling from outside my window. I terrified me so much for some reason. It was really weird to think about because I fucking love wolves, but I guess as a kid they scared me a lot. That's not to terribly surprising though..

Just to clarify-

Before 4th grade I went to another school. I had my friends, school, and my childhood lol. After many sins, flooding, and panics I have a practically new room. It still upsets me having the same room as I did as a kid, that's why when my parents talk about moving I get excited. Much to my friends disapproval..

Last summer I had a girlfriend named Lydia. I really loved her, and we were doing so great it being a secret. But after her mom yelled at her she ran to her room crying and her mom got onto her iPad on saw all of our messages. I guess her mom was homophobic. She told me to never talk to her or her daughter and a lot of., other things. A few days later, me and Lydia were still together sneakily, and I had to put my cat down.

Now tell you, taht cat had been with me since I could remember so I broke inside slightly. So I decided to confront a friend from YMCA camp. But I got caught. My parents saw the messages and talked to me. I completely freaked out, crying, hyperventilating, stressing and everything just came out. I was forced to break up with her and I'm not allowed to talk to her. Her mom even moved cities just for me. But, us kids have roblox.

After I had a bunch of friends come over and stay the night I had trouble adjusting to being alone again, and I felt so empty and alone. So o started having a bunch of play dates and sleepovers. But my family wanted me to gather up and start back on family. So now I sleep with my door cracked. I'm a 12 almost 13 year old who sleeps with their door cracked because they can't sleep at night without it. Ew.

Sorry for the late update, I mean late at night of course, I couldn't sleep after the memory and almost started crying thinking of my old self and decided to just tell the whole fucking world my issue. Can't be the only one who has done that👉👉

Love you guys a lot, sorry for the vent chapter, but what else was I suppose to do tell my parents or friends? 😂❤️❤️❤️

SHUT UP MR. MEEP