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Changes ~ Randy

A/N This is based on the song Changes ( I am sorry if I got any lyrics wrong) Been feeling down in the past days so yeah a sad one again.

Warnings: Suicide

Baby I don't understand this... you're changing... "

Yeah, he had really stared to change lately... he was distant and didn't want to be around us boys... especially me... He kept locking himself in his room and just came out to go to the bathroom or to record and film a cover. He had have dark eye bags and was pale. He seemed to be online on Insta a lot but didn't do stories or post covers as he usually would have done.
" I can't stand this, my heart can't take this damage... "

Yeah... I've never been the person to cry or even talk about my feelings but that time I didn't or even couldn't care. My tears left my body until I felt like there weren't any left. I have talked to all of the boys... even to Mikey. But no one had a clue what was going on. I often cuddled up to Sonny or Brook and even Jack just to have someone around. Brook tried to make me laugh and sometimes he even succeeded. Jack kept talking rubbish but he comforted me in some way... and Sonny, he had been the best. He let me cry into his shoulder and let me say everything that came into my head. He had given me some advises on getting better and they actually helped... but I still hadn't known what was up with Andy... and I missed him intensely.

" In a way I feel, can't stand it..."

Two weeks later, you didn't even bother to come and get some food... you took 6 bottles of water with you and some cookies... I hadn't see you for three days... fucking three days!

" Boy ( actually girl but yk... ) you're making it hard for me... "

Yes, I was empty... you made it hard for me to eat or to talk... the boys forced me to eat even though they didn't eat much either. Sleep? I didn't sleep longer than 3 hours every night and had the worst nightmares... sometimes one of the boys would've come in and just cuddled into me. One night we were all in the living room spread on the floor and crying our hearts out. But you didn't seem to care.

But then the day came... I remember every single second of the worst day in my life... * Flashback *

I woke up after another sleepless night. I got up and went downstairs and made a tea. I then decided to try it one last time... I went to Andy's room and knocked on the door. No response. I tried to open it and surprisingly it opened a little. I stepped into a dark room. I looked to his bed but there were just his covers. I turned to the side and saw a light shine through the bathrooms door. I slightly pushed it open and let out a loud scream...may the loudest I have ever screamed. A memorable scream. I keeled down, in to his blood, next to his lifeless body. I started to cry but I couldn't really cry cause I was in shock very badly. Then Brook and Jack came towards me.. As they saw what was in front of me they fell down next to me and started crying so so hard I finally got over my shock and busted out into tears. Sonny came in and this is the first time I saw that boy breaking down and sobbing his heart out. That broke my heart even more if that was even possible. Jack finally calmed a bit and had showed us a letter which he discovered on the sink. It said:
Dear boys,
I know I must have disappointed you very much but I couldn't take it anymore. I normally don't give a shit about the hate but I just got too much... other than that I really was uncomfortable with my body... the person I really was wasn't there anymore. I tried so hard but I couldn't do this to all of you. I am so sorry... I love you all so fucking much thanks for being my pals, brothers, friends, colleges and thanks for loving me. Please do me a favour and don't grieve too long about it and move on as soon as possible💞
Peace, Love and positivity
Your brother Fovvs

* End of Flashback *

Yes he really changed and then broke all of our hearts, especially mine. The funeral had been okay but a lot of tears were shared again. It's been two years now and there is no day I don't miss you.
I love you so much💖