"You're such an asshole." Jackson said to me. I'm with the other members inside the practice room. Today marks the second week after all the issues about my relationship finally died the fucking down.
Also two weeks after we broke up, Jennie.
I nodded at what Jackson said to me. I know that already and I'm just so fucking exhausted. Whatever they say to me, I can fucking take it.
"Ito na pala yung choreography para sa title track.." Yugyeom smiled as he pressed the play button and the video for the choreography he did played on the screen.
The group learned the choreography faster because everybody's just quiet. Unlike our other usual practices where Jackson and Bam would play around. This time, no one's playing around and all are serious.
No one even dared to talk to me about things. I guess they know that anything about Jennie is a sensitive topic for me. I guess it's better no one talked about her. But even when no one talks about her when I'm around, I'm still reminded of her. Her memories are like a ghost that followed me all day, all fucking day.
I can see her in every corners of my own mind, drowning me with all the memories we had. And I can hear her in every melody, in every note, in every lyric whenever I try to write songs. You're like a ghost that haunted me.
After the practice, I immediately went home. Even in my own fucking home, you're all I see.
How do I fucking move on from this?
While feeding my cats, a notification popped.
It's a tweet from your account, yes, I still follow you, but with another account. I deleted all traces of you from my public account. Because that's exactly what I needed to do to be truly gone from you. So I created another account where I can freely follow and see your posts.
I can only watch you from afar, Jennie.
That's the only option I have. And I needed to be contented with that.
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I guess that's gonna be your debut as a solo artist. Finally, baby. I'm sure it's gonna be a good album, Jennie. I know how good you are as an artist.
I smiled to myself when I bought tickets to your debut showcase. While it fucking sucks I can't let you know that I'm still cheering for you, I'll be contented with just seeing you reach your dreams.
"San ka?" Jinyoung asked me. We all finished our recording sessions for today, lahat silang anim magkakasamang pupunta sa showcase ni Jennie.
"Uwi." Simple kong sagot. Jinyoung seemed to accept my answer since he knows how I am avoiding anymore association with you. Wala naman kasing magandang naidulot yung pangalan ko sa iyo.
