The Girl Who Changes

Chapter 21

Everyone turned to me but all I could see was the horror in Dylan's eyes. They were telling a story of heartbreak and I couldn't deal. He wasn't worth any effort from me, but it was never okay to hear that the one you're destined to be with doesn't have to choose them. This was always the possibility of a wolf and human mating I had found out earlier that there was the chance of the human not responding to the bond and leaving them.

I don't understand how it correlates with what Erik told me about everyone being able to push down the wall. It must have something to do with the ability and the will to believe that everything is true.

Dylan took one last glance at me before standing up and running out of the room. I looked around and saw that everyone was shocked. They didn't know what to do. I looked at Erik and he nodded for me to follow Dylan.

Something that Dylan never gave me. Trust.

Taking that as my que I walked right out of the room ignoring the Beta's as they began to question everything, no one in the room other than Erik and Julian actually knew that I was a mix of four rather than the two.

I went to follow Dylan but I actually knew nothing about the layout of the land. I wouldn't have the slightest clue where he was.

"I know exactly where he would be. When he storms off like that he only goes to that hobby room level. You wouldn't know this, but he was also quite into writing like you were. He was the one who found your piece and read it first. He gave it to me because of the way you described him in it, and he felt really bad. He didn't want to go and see you because of that so he sent me." I heard Ashton say from behind me. I didn't notice he had followed me.

"He sent you, why? Because he knew you'd be good at acting in front of everyone that you were the good guy? Someone that everyone could trust? Well don't worry about that, I don't trust you in the slightest. You had the chance of forming a friendship between us but that ceased the moment you chose to kick me out of this pack. The moment you stepped into my home and acted like you were the one to trust."

The only moment that I chose to just him was where Dylan was. I had nowhere else to go so I would start with the hobby room.

xX---Xx

Walking up the stairs of the big house was an odd experience. I could feel the crumbling of the burnt floor beneath me and I didn't know how long it had been since it had stopped burning.

I don't really hold anything to this place so I felt that I shouldn't even be here. The entire land actually felt like it didn't want me here. Maybe that was something the Alpha could do.

Acting like he wants me to be his friend but actually trying to keep the pack pure like Julian had told me.

I'd made it up to the floor and the memories came rushing back to me, Aurora was silent, but I could feel her pain. The feeling of rejection was something you would never forget. To be so close to rejection and not receive it leaves a sort of mental scar. But this time it might be more permanent.

I could see the desk that I sat at last time right in front of me. I could see the mop of shaggy blonde hair sitting at that desk completely absorbed in what he was writing.

I didn't move for a minute, watching him sit there and write was peaceful. The way his arm was moving rapidly as his hand moved back and forth across the sheet of paper. He was writing like it was the last thing he'd ever do.

I could imagine his forest green eyes intently watching the paper, reading over each word and making sure that it was the perfect one for the sentence. I could imagine this because it was exactly what I do when I write. Even when I plan something it has to make the perfect amount of sense to me.

"Dylan," I start, but I have no idea what to say, "what are you writing?" I decide on, something that doesn't have to get straight into things.

"Honestly, I don't know. I come up here sometimes when I'm frustrated, and words just come out. I can't stop it and it helps me cope with a lot of things."

"I do the same. Writing stories is my safe haven. I'd come home after a stressful day and plan something. It made me believe I had control over something. When everything in my life had appeared so out of control I would sit down and lose myself in the words and the world they brought me."

"That's exactly what they do. Whenever Ashton or my parents expect me to do something they put this pressure on me, something that I can't, that I shouldn't have. They believed I should have been born first. I was wholly committed to this pack. Everyone believed I should be something more because I was the future Beta's twin. But, they had to train Ashton over me because he is the oldest son. So when it came to the point when our lives had to separate, where he couldn't go to school with me, have the same classes as me or even train at the same time as me I felt lost. I was only 12." The hopelessness in his voice washed over me, he was just a boy that had too much pressure put onto him from a young age.

"The first story I ever wrote was about brothers," he continued, turning to look at me. I could see the glint of tears in his eyes. "I don't even remember if they were twins. But I had wrote it so that they would always be beside each other. No matter what their parents made them do. That they would be together. Forever." He paused taking in a shaky breath he looked at me.

"We were reunited when we were 15. But by then there was an unfixable gap between us. He never acted the same but thought everything was normal between us. He looked at me differently. The only thing I had that was a constant was Jessica, and the hope that I would one day find my true mate. The only reason Jessica and I had agreed and come out to the pack as mates was because we are so isolated we rarely get out and I thought I would never leave. The family members of higher ups in the pack never leave for the danger it could bring to the pack if they were caught."

"I'm sorry Dylan, I never knew you went through that."

"It doesn't make a difference though. I was an ass to you that first time we met and now you have another mate. I really am destined to be alone." He finished in a whisper.

"No, you're not destined to be alone. You may have lost your chance at finding your true mate, but you are never alone. If people were destined to be truly alone then what would the point of being born at all? You are here for a reason. It might not be obvious now, but it will come to you. You are young, so much younger than me can you believe? For all we know, because I have two mates, so do you. The moon Goddess wouldn't be so cruel to have given me to you and for me to be taken away."

"You're choosing him." Was all the response I got.

"I haven't chosen anyone. Today just proves that I don't know either of you well enough to 'choose'. I need to know both of you before I do that."

"That doesn't correlate with me also having two mates Ash."

"I'mthinking on the go Dyl, just go with me. Have hope. No one is really destinedto be alone. They can't be" 

The next part is being written, no promises anytime soon, but its getting there. 
Thanks to everyone who has stuck with me through the long breaks of nothing. I'm sorry. 

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