Ryder

Background inforamtion

     It's been a year. A year since I've seen dean, the love of my life. It's been hard. I gave that man 3 years of my life and what he just throws that away like nothing. Like I was trash. Drunk or not , drunk actions are a mans sober actions. He messed up.
   Dean was one of the best things that ever happened to me. Yeah we had our bumps just like every couple. But he was good to me up until that night. The night my life came crumbling down as I saw dean, my boyfriend of 3 years kissing some skank with his hand inside her skirt. I lost every once of sanity I had in my body. I screamed louder then I ever screamed. "You piece of shit" I yelled at him. Dean jumped off of her before I even finished my sentence, I never seen him so nervous in all the years I've known him. Good, I thought.  "Ba-" I interrupted him, "No, don't you dare"I warned with tears streaming down my face as I glared at him with disappointment and disgust. I turned and walked towards my closet and my suitcase and started packing my clothes, makeup, hair brush, and shoes. Dean kept trying to explain him self him I sobbed louder and yelled "shut up" each time. "Please let's talk about this, I'm so so sorry please baby you hav-" I turned around and slapped him so hard my hand was stinging. "Don't ever and I mean ever talk to me again you piece of shit, I never asked anything of you besides for you to never ever hurt me and you pull this shit, NO DEAN, FUCK YOU"  I yelled at him getting louder after each word. I picked up my suitcase and coat and walked out the door listening to dean sob. And Sam standing there confused. 
   I remember that night it was yesterday. I was at the bar. The bar we meet. The bar I still worked at. I gave up everything for that man and this was how he repays me, my thoughts get cut off my the bell going off indicating that yet another person walked through the door. I was waiting for them to walk over to the bar and order a drink like ever local drunk would but I saw or heard no one so I looked up and saw him. Every memory floating back at once.
     Dean I whispered. He just started with Sam watching wide eyed. Sam snapped out of it first and pushed dean causing him to stumble a little. "Y/n" he whispered with tears in his eyes. I froze yet got this tingly feeling in my stomach. "H-hi" dean stumbled, seeing y/n brought back so many emotions. "What um what can I get you" I asked with my voice cracking. "Can we um can we talk?" Dean asked ignoring y/n's question. "What can I get you" I asked again, ignoring deans question. Sam walked away going towards the back of the bar wanting to play pool to win some cash also giving y/n and dean some space but mostly the money part. "Umm.. just a beer" dean said upset knowing he won't get the talk he wanted at the moment. "You got it" y/n said reaching for a beer, deans favorite, and popping the top off then handing it to him.
"Sooo" Dean dragged out. "You need another" y/n asked, "um no I just want to talk" dean said anxiously. "Look dean-" I was cut off by my phone ringing, I did a quick prayer to god. "Excuse me" i said as I answered my phone, "hey mom is everything okay?" I rushed out nervously, my head thinking of all the worst possibilities as to what could happen. Anxiety man, pain in my ass. "Calm down, sweetie nothing to bad just Ryder won't stop crying for the past 15 minutes and he has a bit of a fever" my mom said. " shit, I'm on my way" I said knowing the fight I would have to have with the local drunks to shut the place down since I'm the only worker. "Alright bye sweetie, drive safe. I'll see you soon, love you" " okay, love you too" I replied walking back over towards dean who heard my voice and shot his head back up but eye brows furrowed when he heard me say love you too. "Alright guys were shutting down early tonight" I announced towards everyone in the bar. Groans and grunts were heard till it was just Sam and Dean. "I'm gonna check into the motel now" Sam said. "So why are the shutting down early" "I have stuff to do" I shortly replied. "Y/n please Ive been trying to y'all to you all night" dean said, I rolled my eyes and nodded. Not sure what I was nodding to but I nodded. "Look, how long are you in town for" I asked knowing it wouldn't be long. "As long as it takes" dean replied. Not going to lie it shocked me but it made my heart swell at the thought of dean caring about me again and scold myself. "I'll give you my number okay but I really have to go" I said walking towards the door. Dean smiled brightly and nodded.
Y/n's phone rang as she was locking up the bar. Ugh she whined I'm her head. Dean standing there wanting to walk her to her car like the good old days. "Yes" she asked answering the call "where are you" her mother asked confused as to why she called 30 mins ago and her daughter still wasn't here. "I'm sorry mom I'm on my way, closing up now. Deans here and" but was cut off by her mom asking "dean as in dean whinshester , the father of you're child dean?" Y/n rolled her eyes and said " yes mom that's the only dean I know" "bring him" " what no!" "Yes, now hurry I'm tired"and hung up.