THE LOST SOUL

Chapter 16 'Sorry'

A phone call woke me up. I force my sleepy eyes to open. Groaning and glancing at the clock. Early 7 am. Who the hell is disturbing my sleep? I am really not that a morning person.

I reached my phone and Joe's photo exposed on the screen. I pick up and,

"Bro, In saturday okay? Haha Another victory party. Don't forget" I hear a girl's giggles and maybe that's her girlfriend.

"Fine." Then I hung up and I can't go back to sleep.

I placed my Ipad on the table, cause I know Jamie loves to play with it. And thinking that maybe she'll be back.

I hope so.

I stand and checked the Ipad.

But it still in a full battery.

I take a deep breath.

"Jamie?" I called her and walked slowly through the bathroom.

"Jamie!" I listened and heard no responce. Where could she be?

I brush my teeth and looked in the mirror. After brushing it I went downstairs. I saw max sleeping at the living room.

I kneeled and touched Max' head and rub it.

"Max, can you tell me where Jamie is. " Max closed her eyes and ignored me.

"Please." I muttered to myself.

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I never stop calling for Jamie for days. I have checked my Ipad, asked my dog and stayed up all night for her. I am getting somehow desprate to find her. I made a promise and I have to keep it.

I walked all the way on her house and brought dozen of pink roses. I called Paulee earlier and told me that it was her favorite.

I swiftly knocked on their door. Waiting impatienly to open. Her mother appeared as she opens it. She was suprise to see and and the pink roses in the other hand.

"GoodMorning, Mrs. Lambert!"

I greeted with respect and a huge smile on my face.

"Come in Reevo."

She really looks like Jamie. God, I miss her so much. She makes me laugh and annoys me all the time. She is smart and crazy. Even if we haven't literally met. She is different that any other girls. She's simply beautiful.

I opened her room door. Stepping forward towards her bed. She is still unconcious and I also haven't seen her lost soul.

I stared at her angelic face and study it. She looks normal.

I place the boquet at her tablelamp. I want to see her close and feel her. Sitting next to her bed holding her right hand.

I whispered emotionly.

"Jamie.."

I know she don't wanted to be seen. I also think that she is still nowhere to be found. Blinking my eyes staring at her warm hands and glanced back at her face. Thinking that maybe she wouldn't show up and talk to me.

"I am so sorry.." I continuously whispered.

"I swear that I never intented to hurt you.. I was carried by my emotions, too dumb to believe in lies inside of my head."

She is so beautiful. Why didn't I notice her and meet her all those years. She's my best childhoodfriend. She has those short hair with a wavy bangs swinging everytime we played. She has this laughter that you can always play it inside of your head. She is intelligent and very down to earth. She has this smile that could make the sun brighter. She is Dora. She is Jamie Lambert.

"Sorry, Dora."

Honestly, the time that I saw her at the field with Paulee. I got jealous. Thinking that 'Why is she dating that gay?'

And the time that we first saw each other at that church. I am really the first one who glanced at her before she notice me. It is quite embarrasing though, I could still manage to ignore her.

When she prayed peacefully and her brother whispered something that made her annoyed, and her brother started to giggle. It really made me smile.

At that orphange center, I am unexpectedly very shy at her. I relunctanly walked towards my car and to admit that 'she is teasing me' the fact that we always met in a certain place together. Asking the 'fate' is teasing us. I was the first one who walked out between us.

Knowing that she is a lost soul. It made me scared not because she's a ghost but because of her as a human being didn't exist. Maybe, half of myself want to run away of seeing a real ghost talking. Somehow, it was a relief knowing that her body is stable. I never have doubts of helping her. In just a snapped, I liked her.

I caressed my thumb to her flawless cheek. Studying her face. I felt this aura in the room. I can feel a lady's bare feet standing behind me.

But when I turn around, it was just a curtains blew by the wind outside the window. I am actually hoping that could be her, but I know she won't be hear. I hope she'll just forgive me.

I will just accept not to be forgiven cause I also think I deserve this. I want to tell her how permanently feel.

"Jamie, I love you." Our heads were together and I am tempted to kiss her, so I did. Our lips met, she doesn't kiss back. Her innocent lips is now guilty. I don't care if someone would saw us. I just don't care. All I care about is that she would forgive me and heard me.