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It has been a few minutes since I've opened my eyes. My head feels too heavy to move around so I try to move my eyes sideways to look if someone is here but no one is. Tears roll down from the corner of my eyes and I let them fall. My body aches, both physically and mentally but I'm thankful for the physical pain because I don't think I can go through it alone, here, now, when Edward is not here. He must be thinking I'm okay but here I am, hopeless and weak, so helpless that I can't even wipe my own tears. I shut my eyes close. I hear someone walk in.
"You have to wake up baby girl, wake up for your family. I know you can hear me" A female voice hits my ears and I feel a prick on my arm but my hand seems paralyzed. I open my eyes slowly. The nurse looks at me and smiles, "I'll call your family in" She says and leaves.
I wonder what family she was talking about, maybe Edward came. My breathing pace increases and I don't know how to face him, I'm both happy to be ready to feel his comfort and ashamed for I don't know what but its there.
"Aisha bete, My baby" I see my dad walk in and my tears roll down. He hugs me. The very next second my Dad gets up and the lady nurse makes me sit and I can finally feel my hands and legs, my body feels like body but with a pricky pain. My Dad sits beside me but I don't focus on him, I look at the door like someone is going to break and come in.
"I'm sorry, Aisha, If we weren't so angry this wouldn't have happened", he takes my hands in his and kisses it. I look at him with tears flowing down and then I look at the door again.
"I was so angry, that monster is already behind the bars, the two fellows who brought you here showed up as eye witness and you were under serious observation so-"
"Dad, where is Edward?" I cut him. He looks at me and then he looks down like he is hurt. I did hurt him by asking him about him.
"He's out to bring some post operatives medicines"
"Where is everyone else?" I speak again
"It's just me and him, for now," He says and now that hurts me. He gets up and wipes my tears.
"I'm sorry Dad", I say looking down at the white sheets, "I'm sorry for not telling you"
"It's okay Aisha," He says, sighing
"You're only saying this because I'm here, you would've never seen me if this never happened" I was crying again
"I was hurt Aisha, I didn't expect you to do that but I could have at least heard you, that's what parents do. But you should've told us" He presses my hand gently and gets up to hug me.
The door opens just then and I see Edward. He looks pale and his eyes have bags under them like he's been either crying too much or not sleeping at all. His left hand has a bandage.
"I'll leave you two alone now," Dad says and leaves.
"Hi", I pass him a little smile
He gets to me in three long steps and I can't help but smile at his long steps.
"I love you. I love you so fucking much Aisha. I can't -- I couldn't see you like at lying just like that not talking, not smiling, not irritating me at all" Tears roll down his cheeks
"I can do that later part after you tell me how'd you get that," I say pointing towards the bandage
"I just said so much, and all you hear and a reply is this" He sits beside me, "You're unbelievable"
I smile. I smile to hide the pain I'm afraid to put out there. My stomach is folding up into knots but I don't want to make him sad right now, he has been sad for a while now and I don't want to add on right now.
"I beat him up till his head cracked" He looks at me and then to his bandage, "They let him out on bail, and I was angry so it happened"
"You did what?" I take his face into my hands searching for his eyes
"I didn't kill him, I just make him kind of crippled human, just broke some ribs and lil'skull, that's what the doc said," He says
I wanted to smile at that. That made me happy. I knew he'd get punishment but if he can repeat that again then he can do that one more time.
"What about police?", I ask
"I did it like him, Aisha, quietly and brutally," He says and I can see his white skin get red in anger, "I'm sorry I wasn't there for you baby" He says and tears roll down his cheeks
"I've seen too much tears already, it's so annoying, like first dad and you and me and it's all so sad and --" before I could complete the sentence he kisses me softly and I kiss him back like its completely normal for us to do this here. He pulls away and whispers 'I love you' and I mouth it too.
A knock distracts us and a Lady Doctor comes in. She smiles widely, "Oh Aisha, you don't know how much this man has been drinking up this floor's coffee" she looks at Edward, "Your vitals are okay, so how does it feel?"
"I feel a little sour in my legs and stomach," I say
She points her index finger towards my right side to a blue button, "That's your morphine, press is for a shot if it aches badly", she says, "also are you okay talking about your health or would you like to talk when you'll get discharged?"
"I can talk right now. I'm perfectly fine" I manage a smile
"You cracked your right rib and your head hit a hard surface but you didn't get any crack, so you're very lucky there" She says and I at Edward, "You also had some internal injury but it's nothing to worry, the meds will work" she comes near me and lifts up the sheets to unwrap my legs and my right leg has a metal rod horizontally fixed with screw on both ends and my eyes grow wide.
"Here's where the pain is coming from," she says, "Just a minor surgery, your fibula was broken" she covers it again,"Just a week and you can go home"
I smile at that announcement. My anger and sadness suddenly starts to dissolve and I hold Edward's hand.
"About the major part now," She says and my grip tightens, "We tied your fallopian tube, just one, your abdomen was severely injured, so we tied one just so you do not lose your chances" she sighs and I realize my small nails dig into Edward's skin, "It will be very hard for you Aisha, nearly Impossible, but don't lose hope"
"Don't lose hope Aisha" Edward whispers but I can't hear him properly. He is there beside me making me believe that it's going to be fine but honestly, I don't know.
Hope, it is all that matters at the end of the day, but I wonder if hope ever makes things all right because the last time I hoped, hopes for us, for our families, I started to believe a little less in my own words.
The doctor leaves giving Edward a nod.
"Your Dad gave you blood", He breaks the silence, "also, he's the one who called me"
"Really?" I look at him
"Your mom didn't stop crying but she will never come, that's what he told me" he says, "But he has forgiven us"
"accepted us" I correct him and he smiles
"Where's Vedant?" I can't control my urge to know more
"In the same hospital, then he'll be transferred to jail," He says
"What about you talk with Austin?"
"It's all sorted," he says
"Tell me about it, I at least deserve to know", I say trying to get a little jumpy and feel a sudden rush of pain. Edward presses the button for morphine.
"At least I get to try drugs now," I say and it makes him laugh
"I love you so much", he grabs my hand and kisses it, "Rest baby", he kisses my forehead and lies on the sofa. I feel dizzy and only then I realize I have two kind of loves, that love that understands somethings before we bring them to our lips, that was my dad's love for me.
And Loving Edward was like standing in chaos and listening to music, knowing it will all be okay.

*Two Week Later*

I revisit my Dad but my mom doesn't come out to see me, my dad says one day she will understand too. I decide to go back to London since I have no reason to stay here, Vedant went crazy, doctors said his lower body is fully paralyzed and he was put behind the bars last week also Edward has a whole business to look for and I have to complete my MBA too. He got what he deserved and I don't even feel a bit of sorry for that asshole. I still have the incident imprinted on my brain and I know that its never going to leave me after the whole conceiving thing happened but I can't let it define me. I have to move on. I can't stay stuck and feel sorry for something I couldn't control. I miss Sooraj too so I sometimes talk to an invisible him and Edward smiles at me. Life has to go on, and I decide to finally catch hold of it.

"Passports taken?" I shout across the room.
"Yep" Edward calls out
"Did you pack everything? Did you run the last check?" I say again
"Yes baby, now our Uber is here let's get out" He comes out wearing a black t-shirt and ripped denim.
"You can't wear that," I say
"What's wrong with this?" He looks down at his outfit
"You're looking like a snack and I look like some psycho" I pout
He kisses me and giggles. He puts his hand in the pocket and pulls my hand in his, "here" he says giving me my promise ring back. He wears one too.
"Now I look your snack" He says
I smile.

Edward lets me sit near the window seat. He knows how much I love it. I lock our hands and I put my head on his shoulders.
"I love you," I say and I can feel his smile form.
"I loved you the second I met your eyes" He says
"Ah! I wasn't looking at you" I say
"You were totally looking at me, I'm an eye candy" He laughs
"Whatever" I again put my head on his shoulder.
"When our eyes met," he says, "I knew, I knew deep down till my charcoal black sneakers that my heart belonged to you, it was love at first sight," He says and I smile
"What if we never have met again?" I say
"It's all in the stars, Aisha. It was our fate." He says and I smile.

We were amongst the clouds now and I look out to adore the beauty of the sun and the clouds.
Everyone has a destination, a place to settle, to hide, to be comfortable, just their place. Sun has horizon, moon has clouds, stars have sky and For me it's him. It will always be him.

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