A Blog: Young Adult in the 20's

3-28-20

*Possible Trigger Warning*

It's been quite a while since I've written (now typed) what I've been feeling. Too long, I say. I found my diary from middle school the other day, I read it aloud to my siblings and non-suprisingly they related to it a lot. The insecurity, the angst, the depression that seems to occur continously. 

Though I was surprised to learn a lot more about my sister. I was rather disappointed in myself, to be quite honest. I didn't think to realize the insecurities bubbling within her. I'm glad I know. 

Sorry, it seems I've forgotten to introduce myself, I'm Yasmin, I'm nineteen and I work everyday. I make only slightly above minimum wage, and I don't go to school. Non-surprisingly I was heavily critiqued for not attending school, so I guess that will leave me to suffer in silence. 

Why have I decided to start writing again? When will I go to the backstory of my life?

I mean we'll slowly work up to starting out the story of my life, we'll get to that. 

As for why I'm writing again, It seems I've been inspired by the global pandemic, and by global pandemic I mean, 𝔾𝕝𝕠𝕓𝕒𝕝 ℙ𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕞𝕚𝕔... 

It is a scary time. We're all afraid and it seems the uncertainty is beginning to gnaw at our sanity. 

Now that I've answered one, I must answer the other. 

I was born in the year 2000, October 13th. Yes, I was born on a Friday. Some might say unlucky, and to that I say you're mistaken. Though, it was raining in the slight, and it was a dark October night, ᴏʜ and I was born that day. Anyways, my mother gave birth at 11:50 p.m. and thus a beaut was born!

 I grew up in the early 2000's, daughter to two Salvadorian parents. I learned to Speak both 𝔈𝔰𝔭𝔞𝔫̃𝔬𝔩 and English. Though I learned to speak Spanish first, it caused some difficulties in school, besides the other difficulties in school.  I was too hyper, too excited, too much. Coupled with the fact I couldn't understand half the students well... You can imagine how that played out. 

Yes I've always been talkative, but of course, as most teens can confirm, I went through a dark period, occurring middle school through the beginning of high school. I dealt with a lot of insecurities about my weight and how I looked. My overall confidence, or lack thereof, was detrimental to the upcoming years of my adolescence.

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Through all that, the harming of my body, the destruction, not only physically, but mentally, I made it through. It's tough to talk about, I might open up a bit more as we move on through, but for now we'll move slowly through. 

I reached my peak years when I was about sixteen, 2015 to 2016 was the time. Two thousand and sixteen happened to be one of the best years for me, if I'm being quite honest, there's a lot that happened there. But it's a time of a lot of happiness from what I recall. 

But 2017 was when I think I met the love of my life...