Everything is Wrong

Me. Yeah, i'm still a person.

So.. This is where you meet me. Jocelynn Paige Crockett, born on September 8th, 1999.

A couple months before I was born, my dad begged my mom to aboard me. As if, it didn't happen. I'm obviously here. My mom, seriously disagreed, being she already had my older sister Katlynn Nicole Edwards, born on August 18th, 1997.

Anyway, so after I, Jocelynn was born, I was already named as special. Not as like "not all there" but special, a miracle. None to less, I may have been back then.

2 months after my birth, my mom couldn't take care of me or my older sister. Well my father was never fit to be a father so I moved in with my mommom Rose. My dad's mom. She took care of me, fed me, clothed me. Everything.

Well through those years. I learned everything differently. My grandmother is a lesbian. So I grew up thinking that was OK. My grandmother was mom to me. And her wife was just, Linda. Her name. They were great parents. All my life I was OK with what I had lived with. Still am. I support gays and bisexuals.

Right after I turned 8, my dad and step mom took me away from the only woman I knew as a positive figure in my life. I cried and that was the point I first witnessed depression. I was devastated.

Then growing without the woman I loved so dearly, I met my mom for the first time when I was 8. It was strange. I remember it. "Daddy, who is that woman that just pulled up?" And I ran to my dad's arms. "That's your mom sweetie." He said kissing my head and holding me tightly. I was so clueless and childish then, harmless I rather suppose.

Then 3 years later, I was about to turn 11. I moved in with my mom. I thought it was temporary at the time. Like a foster home. Didn't know the place. Felt like I was in a system. Moving in with 4 other kids and a man was totally out of it to me. I missed my friends so much. I lived as an only cold for 11 years and now, here are for kids.. And a man.

That was when my life turned completely. I changed as a person. I tried deeply to excluded myself and be lonely. I didn't like it at all, not getting the attention I had for all those years.

I started school then, away from all my friends and family I'd grown to know. My new school would be, Everett Meredith Middle School. I only knew one person out of the 604 that went there. And that was Jade Nigro. She had slowly grown as a friend but not a close one by the first week of school. She helped a lot, we were on the same team but not any of the same classes. Sadly. Well my teacher, Mrs. Figlus, had sat me almost next to her desk that year I was  one away from it. The girl who sat right next to the teacher was named, Sherry Hall. We started talking that day, and we made friends. She has actually failed and stayed back. She didn't know anyone either. So we became close quickly. Then we met Jewel and Maya and Taylor and Morgan. We were inseparable. Then we had chorus and became close with a kid named Malachi Duff.

I soon began to have a crush on Malachi Duff. For a short period of time anyway. I told him how I felt and he said  he didn't feel the same way. So I gave up on that.

By the end of sixth grade, I almost failed. Just barely made it through. Sadly, I almost had to stay back without my friends like Sherry had to the year before. But nope I passed by a couple points.

7th grade flew by so fast I don't really remember anything from then, besides I almost failed 7th grade too. Also, Sherry had left school and wasn't coming back. She was staying home to be home schooled. That was also the year I gained a lot of guy friends.

8th grade, also came and went so quickly. Had lots of guy friends then, without Sherry, it was a crazy year. I didn't really like the teachers much. One left because she was pregnant and my other girl teacher was ELA. I hated ELA (English Language Arts). Since that was not my strong suit I was determined not to be left in middle school with all my friends I'd made all through middle school.

The last day of 8th grade came quicker then 9th grade. I was crying my eyes out.. Some of my friends would be leaving for vo-tech high schools. Some just the other regular school. Appo High.