Everything is Wrong

9th grade.

My ninth grade year came quickly and am currently still living it. I hate my school. And most people in it. Still do. My depression levels have gone way up.

In the beginning of the year I only knew one person in my first period, three in my second period, two in my third period, then its lunch, and fourth period I knew four people. Makes me seem lonely.

After a few weeks I met a few new people. One guy I met really stood out to me. He still had Beiber hair. But it didn't matter, I thought he was cute. Well me and him (his name is Chris Redcay) started talking. And Jewel had got her second boyfriend in our school. Named Maurice Mobley. They broke up, and after that, I've hated Jewel. She's not a true friend. Cause after that she went after Chris. Which made me so upset, and Chris let it happen.

Well by then I had started talking to Maurice myself. I mean, I kinda liked him from the start. It started just as friends and then got more serious later on, then he asked me out and I said lemme think about it..came back to school the next day and made out with Maurice. I was having a bad day that day.

But ever since then, I have felt so left out without Maurice. I don't feel safe at school anymore. I feel like I'm just a person. When Maurice left, the Thursday after he left, me and Chris ended up having sex. It was a two full week thing that Maurice was gone on, but the condom broke. But I'm not pregnant, thank god.

So then also when Maurice left I started dating this 18 year old Tyler, we broke up after a week because I was unhappy, he was rushing it. Then I got with this kid named Scott, who I was unhappy with too. So we dated for at least two weeks then broke up because I hated it.

Also, because he gave me the silent treatment all day Friday before we broke up because I made out with my ex. Sorry but if you treat me like shit I'm going cheat on you.