Do you ever get those feelings where you just gonna fall, flat on your ass?
There is nothing you can to to stop it but take the pain, get up and go again hoping you don't fall.
We always say, 'gravity why do you hate me?'
Well this may be true for your physical being.
Though, can we really blame gravity for making us fall emotionally?
Albert Einstein once said
"Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love."
This is I do believe is true.
Just the same for anger and hurt and other downfalls.
We can't blame it on the force intended for you physical being.
You must solely blame it on the intentions of you.
If you get sick, are you going to go blame it on that ice berg that is millions of miles away from you, or the person who coughed on you a week before?
The reason the world is so open to hurt is because, we try to base our falls upon things that are not within the context of our hurt, our pain.
This is why Cassandra Clare refers to loving as being "catastrophically in love with you."
Because love is something that is going to cause you to feel so much pain and so much worry.
It's going to be catastrophic.
Now let me get into a personal version of this.
I am one of those people that you meet, and you just think "she loves talking she must be easy to get close to"
In some cases, I'm okay with that, it's what I do.
Although this is happening, I am also the most afraid and held in person, That I know.
Me trusting someone is hard, rare.
If I trust you, I don't trust you partially, I trust you with my whole heart, my soul.
that is the reason I am afraid.
People.
When they get their hands on something precious they can't wait to break it.
And then blame it on so out of context being.
"You broke your own heart." they say .
why?
That is the question.
Why would I choose to have the only thing I care for broken by myself?
Everything else has been broken.
Confidence.
happiness
feelings
hopefulness
caring
Self-worth.
Why would I choose to hurt myself anymore than I do when I cry myself to sleep, and bring myself to watching myself create artwork, myself as a canvas?
Your answer lies where no one expects to find it.
I wouldn't.
in some cases I guess you could break your own heart all you have to do is love someone a little to much. Let them get a little to close.
let them rip out the only thing you have left.
But we do it.
and we always will because we all want to feel needed by someone.
we all strive to feel the butterflies someone gives you just by saying your name, calling you baby.
letting you know that you matter.
letting you feel like they'd care if you were gone the next day.
We all are looking for something that is hard to find.
Not impossible, but not easy.
Love is an amazing thing, and it is not the people that ruin love, it is love that ruin people.
they don't see it in the way that their best friend stares at them a little too long.
They don't see it when someone get defensive when you talk about someone that you could remotely like.
They don't see in the way that someone is mesmerized my the way you talk.
Don't waste your time telling yourself that you can't find love.
Because the world is trying to tell you that the feelings you have of falling on you ass are the only ones.
Go after the people you want to go after.
Find a way to be okay, and love as hard as you can.
Because your future is oblivious.
Oblivion is scary, and it's just a deep abyss.
But in order to find the person, thing, place, being, that makes you better...
you have to step off, and trust yourself enough to fly.
