Blinded with Hatred [ Completed]

Wedding Night

Wei Ying POV

So many things have change in this 2 years. Mr. lan finally came down on his knees and beg for forgiveness. I saw how my world crumble down when Lan Zhan left me all alone in our house that we were supposed to lived there till death do us apart.

He helped to make this house our home. But now he left me all alone and now this house feel like foreign to me. When he left with Shin all my whole body cell was Screaming me to stop him. But I have already decided to let him go so that he can be happy. I myself don't know how I lived  for 2 years without him.

My day was usual like everyday. I went to Office in morning and came back home. Took my dinner and meds that help me to sleep. I was about to turn off the news when I heard the anchor announcing that Shin Company CEO is marry next week with his fiancé.

I knew that one day I have to hear this but I have never expect that it would be this fast. My dark side still wanted to kidnap and take him far away from all this people. 

It took me back in time when I was the one who's getting marry with Lan Zhan. I still remember how beautiful he look that time. If I had told him truth that time then I didn't  have to see this day.
What's the point in regretting I have already lost him and I don't deserve him.

Every night one of friend or family members will call me to check on me. Today after Shin Engagement all of my friend call me,what surprised me is even Jiang Cheng call me to check on me.

Ever night before I go to bed I always look at the Picture that Lan zhan draw for me. It's the picture of Sun shining brightly on the Marigold Farm.

I miss him miserably. Every Body cells of mine miss him and it aching me knowing that we will never go back to what we used to.

Next morning I went to office as usual. I try to keep myself busy so that I can forget him. For whole month I didn't went to home. I slept in my Office. I know that if I go to home I'll end up making decision that later I'll regret it.

"You look like Dead body??"I woke up by sudden visit of my friend Wèn Ning..

"I wish I was dead."I told him

"Here I got invitation of Shin Weeding.
Let's go tomorrow. Be ready by 10 Am. I will pick you up."

"I don't know if I should go Wèn Ning???"

"This might be your last chance to see him. I heard from my dad that after their weeding they are going abroad to settle their life. So keep your shit together and we are going tomorrow. Take some Nap you look Like Corpse."

After Wèn Ning left. I looked myself in mirror I do look like Corpse. I took 3 pills of sleeping pills and went to deep slumber. I dreamt about the day when I first met him in high school. It was my best  moment in this lifetime.

Tomorrow morning Wèn Ning Came to pick me up exactly at 10:00pm. He help me to pick a suit  for me and in next 15 minutes we left. The journey to the Wedding was silent. I was in my deep thoughts.

"What are you thinking Wei Ying???"

"Thinking about him. Wen Ning if I know that my time with lan zhan will end this fast then I would've treat and love him better."

"Wei Ying.."

"Wen Ning I didn't sleep well yesterday night. Wake me up when we reach at venue."

Oh okay...

There I saw him among so many people. The person I love so much, the person that I miss miserably, the person that I still love madly . Just one look at him and I want to take him far away from all this people. Lock him up and keep him for all by myself.

He saw me and our eyes met and he came towards me. I stopped breathing.
Wèn Ning excuse himself and left me all around.

LAN zhan bring  his hand forward to handshake. I shake his hands. I want the hold his hand Forever and not to let it go.

"How are you doing???" He asked me.

"Doing fine!!!!!" My voice shake little bit.
I want ask him something but someone else call him and he has to excuse himself.  As soon as he left I would no longer breath properly . I was hyperventilating. I went outside and Was having hard time to breathe.

My knees fall on the ground and I thought that I was going to die. Someone passed me a plastic bag and rub my back gently and I don't have to look up to see who's that. I knew him by his touch and smell. I hold one of his hand and with other I hold the plastic bag.

After I felt like I'm okay he pulled me for hug asking me if I was okay. That time I have decided that if I let him go then that's it they we will never go back and I don't want it happened. So I broke in his embrace.
I was wailing in his warm, he keep patting my back telling me that's it's gonna be okay.

"No!!!!!lan zhan it's not Gonna okay if you are not going to there with me. LAN zhan I myself don't know how I lived those years without you!!!!LAN zhan I want you back!!!!. I will do everything you said!!!!"

Today I want to tell him how much I love and miss him. So I let it all out. All those 2 years of suffering. He wiped my tears and being my face closer to his. "Why are you crying like a baby today?? Did something happened?? You can share with me.."

"Don't get Marry with Shin today. Please, I know that I'm being naive but please I don't think I can hold any longer. If you get marry with him then-"

"Then what???"He asked.

And I have decided to tell him truth EVERYTHING . "Then either I have to Kidnap you or kill Shin."

And This time I look Into his eyes. I want him to know that I'm serious right now. I really came to here with no ill intention but seeing you today all my sanity vanished. I know that right now I am not thinking straight. But I can't lose you easily. I know I hurt you badly but after suffering for 2 years makes me realize that I can't live without you. I don't care if you love me or not but I love you so much that I'm ready to do anything for you. I'm even ready to do the things that I shouldn't. And I am serious lan zhan.

"Well that's good cause Today you don't have to kill and kidnap anyone cause I'm not going to get marry today.."

"What do you mean???"

"Who told you that I'm going to marry with Shin??"

"Wait what!!!!!!!"

Did you really mean about kidnapping me or killing Shin???

"Ya!!!!!!! do I look like I'm kidding???"

"Nope..." He smile

Gosh that smile and I can't resist myself.
"I'm actually really glad that your smile is still same. "

"Was it a Compliment or dragging ???"

"Compliment!!!!" I squeeze his hand and hold it tight. We went inside venue. I don't even saw who's Shin Groom cause I was busy watching lan zhan all time. I was afraid that if I looked away from him then he will run away so all this time I hold onto him.
He asked if I can let go of his hand cause he need to go to bathroom but I still don't let him go. Poor lan zhan has to hold his pee for long time.... I later let him used bathroom. Anxiously wait for him outside. Actually I wanted to go inside with him but then I told me to stay outside more like he Warn me.