Love In The Shadows

Chapter 6: Confessions

As Jess and I arrived to our dorm, she plopped herself onto the bed and sighed out in comfort. I giggled and turned on our speaker and put on some music before I went to grab my clothes and towel to shower. 

"Don't take too long. Remember we have stuff to talk about, and you know how I get when I'm impatient." Jess yelled over the music that was now blasting from the speakers. I just laughed and began to undress and turn the water on.  As the warm water began to slide down my back and to my legs I let out a sigh of relief. I hadn't had the time to think about everything that had happened last night. Small flashbacks of Andy came rushing to my mind, giving no time for my brain to enter a blank abyss, his inked skin, his hand on my skin, his mouth on mine. I started to rub my skin raw and harshly. He had an effect no other guy I had been with did. He was all-consuming, addicting and I had only met him yesterday. Maybe talking to Jess about him would help me put him out of my mind. I washed my hair, got out the shower and began to dress.

"You ready?" Jess called out.

"Yeah." I walked around the corner of the bathroom hallway and back into the room. I gave Jess an incredulous look, "Is this really necessary?"

"Yes, it is your actions and lies deem it necessary." Jess had set up two chairs facing each other, she had pencil and journal in hand, the lights were dim and she had a bright table lamp shining on my seat. 

"Don't you think you are being a little too dramatic."

"Nah, this is just about enough."

"Okay..."

"Mhmm. Alright now first question where did you go last night after the incident with Oliver?"

"I don't really know," she arched her eyebrows "Its true. I just took off into the house and after a while I went into a bedroom, there was no one there. I just needed to breathe and be alone, there was a balcony so I just stood there looking at the sky, the people and I was thinking about some things."

"Okay that sounds about accurate of something you would tend to do. So, let me tell you what I saw, after you left I saw Andrew leave a few moments after, having kicked Oliver out of the party, most certainly going to look for you. So tell me, did you and Andrew cross paths that night."

"Yes. We did. He found me in that room." Oh Jess you don't even know.

"Not enough detail. So what happened after he found you, did he say anything, do something." I lowered my eyes and those moments began to replay in my mind, from the time I noticed him to the time that he grabbed me and he began t--. "Oh my God." Jess stood up from her seat and turned on the lights. I was confused, "What? What's wrong."

"I know that face anywhere. You slept with him didn't you. Raven tell me everything. How was he? How did it happen? What did he say? Is that why you were late? Raven! Tell meee--"

I stood up and grabbed her shoulders, "Please Jess. Just calm down. Okay?" She sat on the bed. "Yes, I  had sex with Andrew."

"Uh huh and.."

"And what?"

"Well tell me how everything happened."

"I can't."

"You can't? What do you mean you always have told, the worst and best, and I have always told you." She said with a hint of amusement

"I don't know. It's too much I just can't." I wasn't lying. I couldn't tell her. I didn't even know where to begin, how to describe it. 

"Oh Raven, girl I think...nevermind. Just show me then if you can't maybe I can help you."

"Ok." I looked her in the eyes and began to pull everything from last night and transmit it to her. Her eyes flashed as she was seeing my memories from last night. As, the memories ended she looked at me, not saying anything, just trying to process. "Say something."