When I was 7 years old

Goodbye

My childhood was fill with an empty space. It will always been a lonely day for me. My parents died in a crash. I'm seeing them dead in front of my eyes. And I doesn't understand so much in that time. I was confused why they were bleeding while I'm not. Why they were entering a weird red truck with a white strips and a siren on it. Why they must carried away and can't walk just like they've done before.It's so confusing and chaos during that time.

After a while I'm still remember that I'm keep asking my aunt and uncle about where did my parents go.And they just keep repeating the same answer. That my parents go to a work and will comeback by night. Every night, is a very difficult time for me as I'm always sleep by my parents and now I'm alone. My aunt will always there by my side keep accompany me and she really loved to say. Sleep well tomorrow will be better. If your parents come back home. I will let you know ok. And I'm just so tired and fall asleep and keep repeating the same thing everytime I'm going to sleep. It will always been like that.

Now I'm living with my aunt and uncle and I'm studied at St Joint High School. I doesn't know what happen to me these day. All my past memories come back and attack my emotion.Its started when I'm just finish my class right away. And just like usual go to my locker packs things up and suddenly the things is get messy. "HEY BILLY, STILL ALONE TODAY HUH. NEED YOUR PARENTS HUH. OPPSS, SORRY THEY WERE DEAD".just a bunch of word from a James Carter a high-school famous bullying guy. Some kind like that. He loved to use his strength and power in rugby to use it in school and bullied other kids.

No wonder he did like the school is his.His father was a head of the School. MR Carter. Im always hate a guy like James. But I've get usual to get bullied just like other they were not afraid of James but more afraid about James father.mr Carter known as a disciplinary teacher and teaching English in a fifth grade. They were a mitos said that Mr Carter might had beaten up a kid until that kids get into a wards. I don't know if it was true either.

During that evening, just like usual I'll comeback after other kids had go before me.

'I'm home'.

"Ouh finally you're back. I've heard something happen to you. Do you get into the fight again?"

My aunt start to battering and give her bullshit speech that I've been heard for a thousand times. My aunt is a soft woman, a nun that escape from the church to marry my uncle.Shes also a peace lover. The one that always cheerful in everything he done.Thats is most of the reason she doesn't like I'm getting into a fight.

Today is summer 2018,im make a truly biggest decision I've ever made in my life. A decision that can change my life 100%.Im getting an idea to moving out from my aunt and uncle house and start to live all by myself. I'm making this decision after I'm just finish my graduation last week. I'm just think that I want to go travelling, live like a nomad and finding a meaning of life. I'm try to escape myself from all my friends and my mutual so that I can find my own self and do what I want to do without any rules.On that night, I felt so heavy to leave the house.my aunt and uncle is the best person that I've ever met. They care me just like their own child. But I'm just had this kind of feeling that I'm must to do this thing. On that night, I wrote a letter for them for their kindness growing me up all this being.And I'm leaving my safe house or what can I call comfort zone. And move to the streets and start my own life all again.

My biggest reason I want to leave the house is because I want to find my parent and their grave. My aunt and uncle just said to me until the time has come they will tell me the truth. I can't wait that much. I must do this thing all alone.I've had bad feeling about my parents it looks like my aunt and uncle try to hide something from me. HONKKKKK!!!! There's a big black jeep honking to me. Then came out a big man from the jeep. 'yow man don't you see my car'. 'don't you think it will be hurt if I just crashing you'. 'I'm sorry bro it is my mistake, I'm sorry'.'Hey I know you man'.'You're Carl real son right.' Im just never heard that name man sorry'.that's all what I said and I'm continuing my footsteps.i didn't realise how had my mind gone this time. I'm just walked along the traffic light in the wrong time.After that, The man told me something I wouldn't never forget.'Watchout kids this streets is dangerous, let the mind control you, not the anger'.After that incident I'm continuing my walk on that cold night.My mind is truly in a mess,my mind can't stop thinking about what that man saying about. How in the hell he know my father's name. Second, why is that man giving me a weird warning.After that incident on that late night, I'm getting a bad dream again. I'm dreaming that I'm in a weird blue van. Getting kidnapped by someone that just looks like my aunt and uncle. They were tying me up and lookslike rushing and run from something.

On the morning, I woke up late. I'm just sleeping at the street of building and people just start walking to their office and workplace.I'm getting ready to start my walk all over again.Suddenly,there was a voice called my name over, it was Kelly my girlfriend. I mean a friend not some kind like couple. But just usual close friend. She's waving at me. And I'm just realised that I can't let him know that I'm escaping away from home.So I'm decide to run away as fast as I can from her. I'm running down to a tunnel down that separate new york city and Gotham. And she lost from my vision and I'm just felt so glad. I don't know what is her reaction if I told him that I'd run away from home