WE ARE YOUNG ( ARON PIPER FANFICTION)

chapter 1

           I  wish people would realize what it takes to have a baby. Not being one for instance, putting aside your issues. When you bring life into this world you need to dedicate your own to them. No one should raise themselves, personally I don't think anyone can. a broken child mindset in a grown body its a heartbreaking sight, one I see too often . A baby to me is magic, you have this pure ray of sunshine that will go and do amazing things, with the right support. At some point we were all  magic babies, unfortunately there was no one to teach us how to use it. So we forgot we had it in the first place.

       My mom got married and pregnant within a year of being in a relationship. When she talks about it now she describes those times as being a little desperate, at 28 the time was running out for her, she explains. She says she really liked him, he made her laugh a lot but given the choice, would take it all back. That statement hurts a little cause I know she would take me back, but I get it, taking a good look at her life I can't help but admit-

I understand.

      Grandma's street comes into view and I feel 10 again. Its the perfect image of a small town suburbs with nice neighbors that make small talk in the morning while collecting the mail. The trees seemed bigger then, everything did, more significative, like they  had this secret meaning, a purpose.

      This one summer an old tree had to get cut off, it was my favorite.  Grandma said it was rotten, it would break anyway and was dangerous to not take it down. I was so frustrated, how could they not see his spirit was so alive? I cried for hours next to what was left of the trunk. For me it was more than a tree, it felt like the kind old neighbor died.  Kids always do that, see deeper into things, care more.

But kids don't stay kids forever, do they?

As the car comes to a stop I can see mom trying to get the right words out. this instant doesn't feel real, I'm so used to spacing out now I can't even make the difference. I feel stuck in this moment

    "If you change your mind just call, you don't need to stay here. The transfer process can't be that difficult and all of your friends-"

  "I won't change my mind." I spit out in a more defensive way that I intended. I can't bare looking at her. God she looks so exhausted , I wonder if I look the same. Grandmas worried smile as soon as I get out of the car gives me the answer. I look terrible.

"Oh sweetheart, come here! look at you, You changed so much since I last saw you! "her embrace   is so delicate, like she is afraid to break me or something.

"I missed you."I hear myself whisper in her hair. My voice seems so strange but what doesn't these days? her perfume reminds me of spring, of the garden we build together.

She hugs my mom too, tighter this time, like she's saying "hold on darling, you will survive this"but doesn't actually says it. In reality they don't say anything really, they seem afraid to talk about it, or is just too painful.   

      As I'm approaching the door, mom announces that she needs to go. I wish she could stay here with us, maybe she does too. She gets in the car and leaves in a hurry. And even tho I don't wanna see it, I do, she is crying. I wish I had hugged her.