i remember like it was yesterday

how could you

"Hello." I said shacking his hand. Clearing my throat. We sat on the bench by his garden. "Its been awhile.... How have you been?" He asked trying to care. But I snapped. "You think after all these years that I will open up to you. Well your wrong!" I yelled at him as all my anger dissapered. When his hand flow up in to the air. I looked away. Thinking that I wouldn't feel as much pain. Nothing happened so I looked up and saw him head I'm hands. He looked up. "How could you!" I yelled running away into my room. I fell to the side of my bed and tears were falling. I got up on my bed and grabbed a journal that was under my pillow. I wrote.

     -Dear mom

I can't believe I have to stay here with him. Crying my eyes out all ready. I miss you and brother and sister. Tell them that I well be joining all three of you.

As I was writing my tears were now flowing down like a waterfall. My door opened and I quickly hid my journal under my pillow. My dad walked in and there was a silence so finally spoke up. "How could you do that...how could you try to hurt me once again. Just like you did when I was little. I hate you." I yelled once again. " we have been in the same situation..." I cut him off. "No don't ever say that we have gone throw the same. This is all your fault if you didn't leave the other 3 would still be alive." A shocked look crossed his and my face. He walked out not slamming the door like he was waiting for me to say something. I can't believe I blamed him for this. I fell  on my bed and tears where flowing and soon my eyes lids felt heavy and I drifted off to sleep.

                      A few hours later

I awoke a few hours later. I looked at my phone and it was only 8 at night. "Can't this day just be over." I whispered to my self. My stomach growled at me. I just laughed and went down stairs as quite as I could. I looked around and there was no one. I once again felt abandoned by him again. I went out side and found a bike and I rode down the rode and I saw a field and remembered my little sister and I would play in a field and we would just let the wind blow throw the hair. When all of a sudden there was two bright lights.