GOLDEN (Girl On Drug Sequel)

Loyalty Percentages

'I used to pray when I was sixteen
If I didn't make it then I'd probably make my wrist bleed
Not to mislead turn my nightmares into big dreams'
-The Weeknd

Samiyah (STAR) Perspective

I was heading to Gold house, the only reason I could get there and back was because of lyft. I would've definitely got lost trying to direct myself. Trell was out again all night he didn't hide he was with a woman. I didn't know who but I had a pretty good idea. He still slept with me before he got up and left this morning. I had to scrub another's woman scent off of me. He claims they didn't have sex I believed him.

It wasn't the idea that disgust me, it was simply just Cortrell. He doesn't know what he wants with me but to make me suffer which hurts like hell. Still making my way to Goldens' house I yearned for Reem to be there. I've been craving their touch since it happened. That's why people try to be overly intoxicated when stuff like that occurs. Those souls lingering inside me wheeling me back in. Gold made a mistake letting him sex me like he did. I didn't know if I wanted her help or to take her life.

To me it'd be easier to just take her man from up under her. Why won't he save me like he did her. Of course I know that wasn't his original feelings. But dudes love a damsel in distress and I could be that. I didn't have her number which was my mistake but I was going to get it today. Cassidy .... how'd she even come with that as an alias. She could always lie with a straight face me I'm not that good at it. Wish I was I'd be in a better place with Cortrell.

I didn't know how to lie to him correctly or what to lie about. You have these thoughts when you first get with a person. That one day someone is going to love you for you and accept all your flaws. Even if your flaw use to be turning tricks and setting people up. You'd think in a world like this you'd be able to find someone or someone will find you. Because I wasn't looking for love in Cortrell but I can't leave. I knew I was coming here to talk about Gold helping me find my son and know exactly where Trell is keeping him. I didn't know if I wanted to kill the love of my life just yet. But I know I wanted to love and care for my son finally.

I hopped out the lyft walking down her long narrow gated driveway. She did an astonishing job. If only I was this smart I thought to myself. I peeked around to the garage before I knocked on the door. Seeing was Reem here I yearned for him inside me. I knew it was wrong but the sex Cortrell has been given me lacks passion. Both cars were here today.

I knocked on the door nervous. Feeling insecure about myself this was a constant feeling but it was never so strong. It's like I was facing everything I wanted and seeing that I couldn't have it. I played with my fingers trying not to seem as antsy as I really was. And there she was in a blue Vera wang dress fitting her frame perfectly. Just smiling that award winning smile. I smiled back "Hey G, how you feeling?" I say. She smirked and shook her head.

 

      "Good yet conflicted as always, come on in" she said leading me into her home. "Can you really help me get my son back?" I just came out with it. I was so distracted by my lustful thoughts I almost lost track of the task. "Yeah I know we can I just want to know more." I felt chills when she said we. I knew he'd be helping me just like he was helping her. "What do you need to know ?" I asked."Everything." The thought of that made me tense and uncomfortable.

   

     "Do you want some tea?" She asked. I laughed and looked into her eyes. "The hood ain't your life no more. Bitch you drinking tea, good shit!" I couldn't help it. I think the wine I've been sipping was kicking in. Yet she didn't seem to be taunted by anything I was saying. "I didn't want that anymore especially with the princess" she said referring to Vanea her daughter. Beautiful combination I had to admit.