How I truly feel

Not Being Good Enough

Honestly, no matter what I do or how I do it I'm never good enough for anyone..... I get shamed on daily and even bullied daily because of how I am and how my personality it.... I'm sorry that i have disorders and that I'm traumatized..... I'm sorry that I don't live up to your expectations..... I'm sorry I can't do everything right. I'm sorry I'm not perfect. I'm sorry that I'm not good enough.... F**k why you gonna go around and telling someone who suffers from severe depression to go kill themselves and that no one will ever want them..... like really you think I haven't tried offing myself already? Well I have and the outcome was horrible.... all.it did was hurt me and make me more of a laughing stock..... cause apparently jumping from a 4 story building won't kill you and all it does is ruin you.... you want someone to be good enough than go find them and stop picking on someone who goes through enough stuff as it is... cause for me... when someone tells me that they "love" me, it's hard to believe and it gets harder and harder to believe.... like I really try to believe it but I can't always..... I need to be reminded constantly because of how I am now..... I'm sorry to everyone for who I am and I keep trying to change but it's kinda hard to.... goodbye