Diary,
We have a full house tonight, once again thanks to Jimmy who's obliviously being modest about the whole situation, although he's hiding it. I know he still feels guilty about Meep even though it wasn't his fault. Maggie told me he confronted the detective stating Meep's the real hero, this confirming what I already know. However hopefully since Jimmy released the kidnapped kids and teens, the townies will be more gracious towards us, stretching it as far as accepting of us. All wishful thinking.
On other news Elsa has given me a spot on the show. I have a spot in the freak show, performing in front of a full house a hugely terrifying yet thrilling sensation. Hopefully it will be a good night.
Wish me luck..
Sliding my black ink pen in between the journals white pages, closing my tattered journal shut laying it in the dresser draw, my eyes disappointingly searching through my dresser draw fiddling with my horrifically old tacky makeup shattered like shrapnel. I forgot one thing I have no descent makeup or clothes the thrilling buzz begin to flicker and die as the realisation I will be performing in ugly dresses, frighteningly-tacky makeup plastered on my face. I've got to go shopping get some new clothes.... New makeup at least.
Restlessly venturing through the camp, trying to locate Jimmy asking numerous people as I pass them several shrug their shoulders unhelpfully whereas others had me running in all directions like a lost puppy. Until Paul points me in the right direction, gesturing behind the stacks of chairs and tables a wooden bench lays hidden away in a little nook Jimmy was laying across a wooden bench "Hey Jimmy is there any chance you would mind doing me a favour?" I ask hestiantly softly my handbag on my arm, whilst Jimmy lies on the bench.
"Sure, Angel. What?" Jimmy says sitting up suddenly facing me his . "Drive me into town I would really like to get some things."
"Alright I'll meet you outside in ten minutes" He smiles walking behind the stage out the big tent towards his tent whilst I wander outside towards the entrance of the grounds.
"Are you ready?" Jimmy calls jogging towards me, I nod in respond as we walk towards his motorcycle sitting behind him we bring driving along the tree lined track road into town.
"Where do you want go?" Jimmy asks loudly over the sounds of the engine. "There" I reply pointing towards a cosmetic shop.
"I'll just wait out here" Jimmy says perched on his bike, while I step into the store collecting makeup for my performance tonight. Selecting different shades of lipstick; bubblegum pink, coral, scarlet and berry wine as well as a baby pink blush and jet black mascara and eyeliner gel before leaving and returning to Jimmy.
"Can I just have a look in here, please?" I request lightly pointing at the fashion boutique across the the road, "Sure" Jimmy smiles stepping out ito the road checking the traffic before we begin walking over the tramac to other concrete slabbed pavement, gently grasping the shining silver handle opening the door.
My hand grazing the rails of delicate dresses, vast spectrum of colours; fuchsia, turquoise, lemon, coal, shimmering silver all lightly decorated with gems, sequins and glitter however outstandingly beautiful all I couldn't wear. All were high-back with zip gliding up the spine with decorative assortments arranged there; my wings... I wouldn't be able to perform and the dresses are too intricately detailed that any adjustments or alterations would destroy the sheer elegance of the dress. I have never been dress showing, I never realised how truly frustrating it would be to find one. Jimmy must noticed my frustration as he friendly wraps his arm over my shoulder comfortingly, "Don't worry about it, we'll find you something" He says gently wiping the stray tears gliding down my cheek, one I didn't even realise fell. "I'm fine, I'm fine." I choke weakly, shrugging him off hastily stepping out of the boutique.
