SUICIDE AND REVENGE

Chapter 3- Is this the day i say goodbye?

My eyes feel heavy, I try to open them, but fail. I try again and it works. But I have to shut my eyes from the brightness of the room or let's say corridor. Yeah that means I was left there, no teachers care. I open my eyes now used to the light. I sit up slowly, I feel the pain insid and out. Physically, emotionally and mentally. I'm done, I'm going home. Even though it doesn't feel home. It feels like I'm not wanted but forced to stay there. Confusing right. I get up and check the time. 2:45. Schools over, and I'm left here! I ran out the building as fast my aching body can deal with. I get to the bus stop and wait for the 3:00 bus. I sit down and think if today is the day, where all the pain is gone, the weight of my shoulders, being free from the society. The bus arrives and I hope on last. I stay at the front next to my best friend. You know, bus lady.
"How r u Mia?"
"Not good, I think I'm ready."
"Ready for what?"
"For the darkness to swallow me whole."
"I'm going to miss u, I wish I could stop u, but it's for the best." She says while silent tears fall. I feel my cheeks getting wet from my own tears.
"Thank you for being there and understanding. I will be sure to grant something for u if I come back as a ghost."
"I will always remember u Mia."
She says as she stops in front of my house. She gets up and gives me the tightest hug. I have t been hugged in ages... I feel her shirt and my shirt getting wet by tears. But the others on the bus ruin the moment by calling;
"Just get off the bus already u whimpering baby."
"Get off u slut."
I let go and kiss her on the cheek, which she returns. I'm not lesbian, but this is the last time I'll see her.
"Goodbye Mia Angel."
"Goodbye Bus Driver."
I hop off the bus and make my way to the door. Noticing my mums car is in the drive way. Great! I walk into the house and hear my mum scream;
"Where the fuck were u. U little slut, attention whore!"
"If anybody is a slut mother, it's u. It's ur fault u made me. Your fault that u had to care for me!" I yell back.
"You were just a mistake! I never wanted u and I still don't! Go fucking die!"
"I will fucker!" All of a sudden there's a stinging sensation on my cheek. She slapped me! I just run up the stairs and into my room. I put my bag down and grab a price of paper and a pen. I write down;
'I'm writing this note so u know this was suicide not murder. But I'll use murder to get revenge, look out mother fuckers!'
I take the note with me into the bathroom. I put the note next to the sink and grab the big knife I keep on the cabinet. I cut my wrists deep enough to bleed, toast sure not to deep yet. With the blood, on the opposite white wall I write: REVENGE. I grab the knife and hold it as tight as I can. I look at my self it the mirror. I slowly being the knife up to my throat, only enough to feel the coldness of it. I move it to the left side and look into my eyes in the mirror. They look more alive then ever. I whisper; "good bye body, sorry u had to put up with me and my soul."
I push hard and drag it across to the right side slowly. My eyes fade each time it moves 1mm, watching the life run out of my eyes. I gasp. A million thoughts in my head as I drop to the floor full of my blood. Finally I'm leaving this body. I think one last thing as the darkness takes me. My heart, mind and body are all broken, but now is my soul. That's why I'm leaving.