Everything I Never Was

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"What I kept missing wasn't you, it was the memories.
So I realised I needed something new.
Maybe that's why I searched for you everywhere, but there.
My heart kept beating only for one person who held it loosely,

Because she wasn't chaotic like me, she wasn't like an ocean and thunderstorms, she wasn't the girl who wanted to find herself by getting lost with others.

She was what you're looking for.

She wasn't me.

She was everything
I never was.

I was overcome with fear,

fear of losing you.
And I let go.
I crashed my own heart.

For you to fix it.
And for me to, maybe, fall beyond in love.
With you. Again. As always.
Deeply, non stop. "