As Written in the Stars

Watch me from the clouds (2020)

Sometimes I feel alive

Like a kite going up into the bright sky

The sun's warmth warming my skin and making me grin

A natural high that makes me sigh

I could run for miles and still feel like flying

Other times I feel like crying

Swallowing too hard, my throat aching

I have too much on my shoulders

Like bricks tied to them

Dragging me down

My head is barely above the roaring water

Ever since you left I felt like I can no longer swim

You were my rainbow

The brightest star in the midnight sky

Dancing in the heavens

I'm selfish for feeling this way

You were solid ground that helped me to walk when all I could do was fall

You were always there when I needed someone most

You held me tight and told me everything would be alright

But now that you're gone I feel like I can no longer swim

No longer walk on solid ground or fly as high as a kite

I can feel the water in my ears

My head is sinking

My heart is pounding

Tugging at me and begging me to scream

My breath stuck in my throat, threatening to blow

To let it all out

All the pain I've let bottle up inside

I don't need no prince to save me

I don't need a savior to come to my aid now

Watch me as I save myself

I can't cry

Can't shout

Watch me as I swim with these bricks

Watch me as I learn how to fly again

I'll do it for you

As you watch me from the sky;