My life: a crazy long story

the bad relationship

I was born in california and raised in Texas. my life has always been crazy... it makes for a pretty good story so i think i'm going to tell one today! this story is about my ex. we were together for about 7 months. i remember going to a party with him and i did some things i wish i hadn't... but i was high and he was drunk. i think i passed out and i woke up in a bedroom. (i'm going to call my ex jake) jake was... well he was having sex with me when i was knocked out. so i obviously didn't want him to get mad at me but i wanted it to stop. i started to cry but every time he would hear me, he would slap me.... so i didn't fight it because i was weak and didn't know what to do in this situation. about three days later we hung out again. i was very uncomfortable around him and didn't know how to act anymore. i just stayed silent when jake and i were out together which only made him more mad. a few weeks go by and i started to suspect that he was talking to other girls, so when he walked away from his phone... i took it and locked myself in the bathroom. i found out he was talking to a girl who LOOKED LIKE ME!! i ran out and tried not to cry for the rest of the night. a few days passed and i just couldn't help but to ask him why? i told him we needed to talk immediately so he came and picked me up from my house and we went to a fast food place to talk. i confronted him and he just tried to defend himself by making excuses. i listened anyways because i loved him. we went to his house and had sex again. i stayed at his house for a few days because my parents were out of town and they trusted him. when my parents came home, i had bruises but blamed it on me falling. a week goes by and i didn't get my period!! i quickly went to the store and got pregnancy tests and took them as soon as i could....they came back positive😔 i called jake and told him to come to my house asap. we had sex again before i had the chance to tell him... afterwards, he told me that he was in love with someone else, so i told him and he freaked out and told me that we are through...and left me. two months go by and we decided to move out of state. (my parents didn't know)  i started a new school and got new friends! i didn't tell anyone because i didn't want to be judged and i didn't want to loose my new friends. 😪 i would cry myself to sleep every night. i hit five months and nobody knew yet. my stomach was growing bigger and it was getting really hard to hide. every night i would punch myself in the stomach....and then one day, i OD'd and i lost the baby that night....anyways, that got really dark! i'm sorry 😐 but i'm happy i lived through that so i can tell my story. thank you for listening to this story! and please, if you have and comments AT ALL don't be afraid to type them down! i will be answering them as much as i can! have an amazing day and remember that you are beautiful and with it!!